Llyce J Collins

Life's must go on.

2010-10-06T08:44:00.001-07:00

You talk harsh to me. You yelled to me.
How does I feel about it?

You don't even care about me anymore.

You're acting so strange.

Who are you? I don't know you!

You hate waiting uh? How does I feel.

You're getting selfish!

You're so different.

You don't what I've felt here. Ni... Inside my heart ah.

You know We didn't much time to spend together but What I see when I'm with you It's like you're not with me. You're with phone. Your new phone!

I want the old you... :'( Like seriously indeed.

Love, I'm lucky!

2010-09-05T08:40:00.001-07:00

HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY LOVE!

Main game saja jua eh.

2010-08-17T09:18:00.000-07:00

Hi. It's me again. Who else jua use this page? Duan kali? Well. He's not interested in blog. So, how's world today?

Me and Duan woke up around 10 plus. HAHAHA We sleep around 5 after Sahur. Inda cukup tidur eh. Mata kami macam Panda sudah. O.o

Yes, petang. We bermovie saja at Living Rooms nothing to do bah eh. Ummmm.. Then around 5. Me, Duan, Babah and the 3 kids meminggir to Gerai Ramadhan at BimBiaga kali? I forgot the name. Lol Beli Ayam penyet, Abc apa. Thanks for the Ayam Penyet, Bebehnya. I love you! >.<

And then rushed to home around 6 plus plus. Alhamdulillah, kenyang. Then of course, bermain guitarhero pakai hapek Babah.. Sampai rusak. Yes, rusak. Inda mahu di On ah. =.= Andang guilty rasa ku.

Yeay! Another night with Duan. Miss him so bad. So yeah, Imma off to bed now. Duan is waiting. Lol

Happy birthday Myra Gxla Baie, enjoy your single life. Opps! ;)

3 dayzz left, I'm waiting for the Surpriseeeeeeee :DDD

Acting like Mr and Mrs Smith :)

2010-08-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hi. Bonjour Na. Here, Me again. Thanks to my bebeh. He bought me credit. :) Inda payah tah lagi ku mengusut arah Babah ku.

Today's toadly suck. I awake around 7 plus plus. Damn, I'm so sleepy. Yes, I haven't sahur. Inda tebangun. Then, rushed to the bathroom. And then, Me, Babah, Mama and Baby J went to hospital. My back was so damn hurts. Then dengani Babah, appointment. After that, We're off to Yayasan. Dad's got appointment with Doctor Lim, Dental Clinic. And I bought some cookies from Famous Amos. Teseliur jua lah. Tahan saja.

Annen, We went to Uncle Jaafar's shop of course YMRM Galleria. Mental ni Uncle ah. Muka kami saja kan diliatnya every weekend. HAHAHA Jk Mahn. Bought kain for the guys. Soon We went to Bismi, lawat Kaka Nana and bought something there.

Shopping time at Soon Lee Mentiri. Lucky, I am. I bought alots foodies. Like alot? HAHAHAHA Stock wah eh. Home around two plus. I'm superb tired and sleepy. O.o

And then, My mood turns to swing. Damn right? Whateverlah, Mr and Mrs. I don't even fucking care. As long as you guys happy. Thanks alot for labeling with as TUKANG FITNAH. I like tu (;

I miss my bebeh. Wondering where him at right now. Hmm. So see ya!

I know He'll be there.

2010-08-15T05:40:00.001-07:00

Lastnight, I just got back from Hospital. And then the door of my house was automatically opened. I was so curious. Dad asked me to check every single room. Lastly, I checked my room. And then Dad was laughed loud out. Rupanya my bebeh Duan ada. I was so happy.

Yeah, masuk room. I was so like inda biasa. I don't know lah why. Hahah. And then, Duan hugs me from the very tight lah dari the back. He said, he miss me so much. Yeah, around berapa days we didn't meet.

Yatah tadi ia balik. I miss him so bad. Really. Hp lagi nada credit. Thank to dad, mahu pinjamkan his phone. Plus, I did send my cv and my bebeh punya cv to any company lah. Hehe. Hopefully, ada. And yeah, This tuesday got interview lagi di Jpmc. Not sure datang or not. Bah, me off.

Awangku Mohd Redzuan I love.

Hello Shatterday.

2010-08-13T21:02:00.001-07:00

Hi! Morning. I mean, It's Noon. I just awake. So sleepy, mahn! What to do. Be a good mother to my son have to do a lots thing. Yeah, right. Lol

Anyway, I is puasa today. Time Sahur, I just ate Cookies and drank Water. Hopefully my Bumbum will not mengusut kelaparan. Chill. Half day saja lagi. :S

Today, Ummmm.. Got walk in interview at Empire Hotel. Go. Not. Go. Not. Go. Not. Well, Dad preferred me just send my cv through their email. Easy and Quick (:

Duan will sleepover at my crib tonight. Yeay! A free massage for me later. Gonna besahur with my husband too. Thanks Bebeh.

Ayu, the sister did invited me to hangout with them. Yeah, like usual we do on Saturday Night with The Senudin's famalyh. Rockband! I guess, I'm not coming. See ya soon.

Oh yeah, I need to go shower before My parent gets home. A good girl doesn't wake up this late. HAHAHAHA So... Be update tommorow. (L)

Hi! I'm back.

2010-08-12T02:13:00.001-07:00

It's been so long that I haven't blogging. I know. Berhabuk too much sudah this blog. No visitor? Pity. Whatever it is. This is my page, you may come you may go.

Duan and I did deactivated our facebook last week. Just to see Who's cannot live without facebook. Alhamdulilah, It went very well. And today, We activated back to Facebook World. Anyho, Update Photos. Update Status. Update Wallpost and Update Notes. Done everything!

Anyway, Today is the first day of Ramadhan. Selamat Berpuasa to Muslim People. :) Hopefully, my puasa full this year... Amin.

Duan! Yes. I'm proud of him. He is puasa today. Hehe. Thanks for the 5 days 4 nights. I do apprieciate it. Being with you is all I ever wanted. I love you and Now, I miss you.

I'm kinda Miss my sister. It's been 2 days I haven't seen her. She's busy since the new semester open. :/

Well, I'm getting 18. No more manja to Babah :( Oh yeah, I'll have my driving license. Yeay! Dad asked me to choose either Sirion or Swift or just use his car. Dad said, for you easy to work.

Oh yeah, Got to go. Be update tommorow!

I call you, " Mama ".

2010-05-08T23:25:00.000-07:00

How can you know how much you mean to me?
After all the heartache, there is love.
You know well the cost of sacrifice.

I know sometimes we argue and I sometimes blow my lid.
But I still love you very much.
I'm only just a kid.

Mum has six kids, works hard all day.
Undoing the damage of time, wind and clay.
Makes the whole world want to stop, sigh and stay.

You are my mother and my friend, which is unusual.
Somehow our characters must blend, your wisdom and my will.

I know how difficult I've made your life.
Now that you're brought home another father.
You have your new dominion as a wife.
While I still mourn the absence of the other.

There is no love enough for me to give you.
However much I feel, there should be more.
All the love an angel choir might sing you.
Never makes it halfway up that shore.
Know that I would burst my willing heart.
Your life to fill with pleasure overflowing,
Or if I had that genius and the art.
Hold me with a vastness, I recall.
Even as your love became my sea
Remember that the same is yours from me.

M is for the miracle of being.
O is for it's origin in love.
T is for the tenderness of seeing.
H is for a home no wind can move.
E is for the ecstasy of living.
R is for the recleaness of giving.

Mother, you know what's the best gift from you to me?
Awangku Mohammad Redzuan, mom. :')

I love you, Sharifah Noraini binti Awang Jumah.

Happy Mama's day.

With love,
~~Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.~~

I wanna be that girl.

2010-04-10T07:40:00.001-07:00

I get this feeling inside whenever I see you.

You give me butterflies.

And there's nothing I can do the way it feels is just so sweet.

Your touch, your kiss it makes me weak.

Just let me show you this is true.

Give me the chance and I will prove.

I really think that you're the one.

I want to show you where I'm coming from.

I want to be your girl and be the one who's down for you.

I'd like to get the chance to show you that..

My love is true.

I know exactly why I'm falling in love with you.

It's just like honey to a bee.

The way that you have captured me

just like a taste of ecstacy.

You need to know that I believe..

You're the one that makes me feel this way.

The way you make me feel.

Just ket me show you this is true.

I don't want to be without you and I don't want to live without you.

I want to be the one.

Let me know boy, Can I be the one that you want that you need?

Let me know boy cause I'm into you and I want you cause I need too.

How can it be that you're the one.

I love you always, Redzuan.

LAST PART - cana bulih juan and wiwi couple?

2010-03-30T06:13:00.000-07:00

5th February ni. *Hari special ni!*
HAHAHA!

masa malam ni..
si wiwi and si juan chatting ni msn. eseh.
sudah atu ah. HAHAHA!
malu tah ku nah kan becerita.
chatting ni..

Juan: Assalamualaikum~

Wiwi: wslm.

Juan: hy wi, bhpa 2?

Wiwi: ni duduk duduk.

Juan: owh..

Wiwi: you behapa?

Juan: ni lepak ar.

Wiwi: oh. so, what should I call you?

Juan: Wan buleh jua.

Wiwi: ehm, Juan bulih?

Juan: oky.. kenapa inda panggil beh saja? :p

Wiwi: benar?

Juan: hahaha...

Wiwi: beh :p

Juan: Wi.. tanya bulih?

Wiwi: sure.

Juan: Sudikah Wiwi menjadi girlfriend Wan?

Si wiwi blank ni. Ketawa ketawa berabis. sampai sakit jua parut atu. kali Hati si wiwi ani kuat tah jua kan menerima atu wah. eseh! HAHAHAH!

Wiwi: i do.

Juan: :)

haha, then couple tiaaaaa~ HAHA!
atu aku inda berapa ingat the text pasal si Juan banyak bagi pantun. :p
so, aku cerita cerita tabak tabak saja. but this is the way we couple.

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si Juan and si Wiwi first date on 9th February 2010.
but hey, actually. we know each other before! dari mig. si Juan wah yang selalu mengkick aku dari room. yang malar ku sumpah apa dulu. ia kick aku anu pasal aku malar flood the chat room ah. talur kan? HAHAHA!

and yeah, sampai masa ani kami happy together. si tulang and si lemak. :DDD
doakan kan kami sampai kawin ah? HAHAHAH! :p
but yeah, THANKS TO OUR MOMS SATU KAN KAMI :))

I love you, Juan. <3

PART THREE - cana bulih juan and wiwi couple?

2010-03-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

3rd February, time malam ni.
kia si wiwi balik dari kerja lah jua. online msn ni.
si Juan ani adatah jua mentext.

*ignore text si Juan*

busy si wiwi membalas wall rah facebook. majal tah jua si Juan atu mentext.
si Wiwi pun layan tah jua si Juan ani.
macam biasa lah ni, chatting itu ini apa.

si Wiwi lagi masih curious wah ni inda tahu siapa si Juan and yang mana satu si Juan. pasal nya macam kembar wah yang datang atu. manakan jua. majal ni si wiwi ah betanya yang Si Juan ani yang mana satu.

kali kali..

to be continue..

PART TWO - cana bulih juan and wiwi couple?

2010-03-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

2d Februari ni ah. pagi pagi sebelum si Wiwi ken keraja ni. si wiwi betanya tah jua rah mama nya.

Wiwi: Ma, kenal mama number ani? *bagitahu number si Juan*

Mama: entah eh. mengapa?

Wiwi: apa tu, si Vivi nya kan aku. kan kenalan kenalan lagi tu.

Mama: eh, ada si Juan ngaga kau?

Wiwi: Juan mana eh? *mua bangang.

Mama: eeh, anak Aunty Simah mu. aku bagi number hp mu arah nya.

Wiwi: woah, bagus tu ih. Yang dua urang anu datang tempat ku ani kah? yang seorang handsome ah. *senyum besar.

Mama: entah ah, inda ku ingat. pasalnya, Aunty Simah mu ke rumah dengan anak nya lelaki si Saf kali namanya.

Wiwi: boh, yang message aku ani yang mana satu?

Mama: tunggu, aku message mama nya.

On the way kerja ni Si wiwi ah. kali, tangan si Wiwi ani gatal tah jua kan mc si Juan atu.
Sampai kedai, ada tia message ni. Si Juan message pikir nya si Wiwi salah takan. but inda lah. si wiwi inda salah tekan yo. HAHAHA! kali kali, si Juan ni menyuruh online facebook. batah wah ia online atu. kali ada tia mama si Wiwi message.

" Wi, nama anak nya atu Awangku Muhammad Redzuan "

kali terclick tia. tapi still ni si wiwi inda tahu mana satu. HAHA!
online ni ah, chatting lah. si Juan ani still inda mahu ngakun lah yang ia anak Aunty Simah.
kan belakon konon. ceh, uarang tahu sudah masih lagi kan tapok tapok. last last si Wiwi kusut dah ni stress majal dah. nah, akhir nya.. mengaku tia jua. Si Juan ni katanya, Mami nya bagi number si Wiwi kira contact si Wiwi suruh bekawan. bla bla bla....

to be continue..

PART ONE - cana buleh juan and wiwi couple?

2010-03-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

Cerita nya bermula pada 1hb Februari ni. Si Juan sama Abang nya ke kedai dimana tempat si Wiwi kerja. datang ni. time atu si Wiwi sibuk melayan facebook nya. muka pun malas melayan. kesian ni Si Juan sama abangnya diri diri inda kena layan. last last si Wiwi melayan.

Wiwi: Yes?

Juan: kalau masuk video dari hp ke CD dapat kah?

Wiwi: Aunty, If Video from phone how much transfer to CD?

Aunty Jho: I think, it's 2 dollar.

Wiwi: 2 dollar.

Juan: oh.

Si wiwi senyum saja. Excen ni si Wiwi ah ngusai rambut. *ignore si Juan*

Juan: err, kerja sini kah?

Wiwi: awu. *mua malas melayan*

Juan: okay. *senyum*

A few seconds after...

Juan: Bah, karang kemari lagi.

Wiwi: okay. *main facebook*

After si Juan turun. ada tia missed call ni arah phone si wiwi ani. Si wiwi ignore nya ganya sibuk bah ia pulang online facebook atu. Sekali ada bunyi message masuk arah hp si Wiwi. Si wiwi biarkan saja. Sekali lihat 3 missed call. Kira majal hantap jua lah urang yang mc mc ani. Same number yo. Then then si Wiwi membaca message ni. Ketawa ketawa membaca ah. Dalam hati, " Siapa lagi yang kan bekenalan ani kan? " Sampai kebawah message ah, bepantun pantun ani wah. Si wiwi ni hairan ni lakat, adakah si Vivi nya kan si Wiwi. Si wiwi pun reply lah jua tapi jual mahal sikit. Minta facebook tia lagi urang atu. Aish, si wiwi pun mun pasal facebook andang ia ingin ni membagi. Macam macam ni si Juan ah kan mengurat si Wiwi. Si wiwi ni pun curious jua kan mereply. Stranger wah tu!

Chatting apa ni dengan si Juan ah si wiwi atu. kali, Si Juan ani pandai tia cakap yang dapat number hp atu dari si Jacko lah apalah. itulah inilah. ceh. then si Juan lagi malar dc. lastlast malas si Wiwi melayan.

To be continue..

My eternity life is Juan.

2010-03-17T03:09:00.001-07:00

hello.
wiwi kembali ke dunia diary! haiya. jarang active. behabuk diary ku ni. -.-

last monday, juan was here. sleepover di rumaah. my family semua jalan ni. tinggal me, juan and jenny saja. so, around 11 plus kali. on the way kan masak ni. haiyaa. sakit tia payut ku ah. matai. nages nages ani wah. belimpangan di dapur ah. si jenny picik picik perut ku. ke bilik ya, ngaga uncle juan. uncle juan nya inda pecaya. -_-"

mikin besar jua lah tangis ku pagi atu. gila. sakit berabis ani wah. batah jua ku tu menunggu si juan save my life. HAHAHA! cam apa. dah ku teriaki menages ah, baru tah ia datang.

juan : ya-rabbi. *ngangkat si wiwi.

wiwi : *lepaskan terus limpang balik. sakit wah!

juan : ubat by mana? *panic.

wiwi : by buang dah. *nages.

juan : ah? *duduk sebelah wiwi.

wiwi : by buang wah.

juan : bagus tu, bagus. *cubit tangan si wiwi.

wiwi : sakit beh.. sakit.

juan : luan mengarasi atu jua. *mengangkat si wiwi ke bilik.

bawa nya limpang and hug. last last tetidur. then petang tu jua lah juan bawa ke hospital. doctor takut payut ku ada batu. ://

then mengantar juan ke rumah. then aku and family ke pantai. babah suruh ambil angin. so yeah, after ke pantai terus ke rumah juan. liat juan jamming dengan bandnya plus dinner dengan familynya. hehe. ikhwan nya nakal amat! nurul and saf pun ada. :)) mami and syura and the others.

around 10plus, juan send me home. akhir jua lah juan balik, around 12 kali. dating dalam kereta. HAHAHA! mpb wah. ;]

No, I won't breakdown.

2010-02-07T00:48:00.000-08:00

6th February 2010.

O'LEVEL RESULT IS OUT. :)

B4
E8
U9
E8
U9
D7
U9

lawa kan result ku?
but hey, my maths is totally increase.
&
two oral is pass.

thanks to those people I love.

Dad, I'm so sorry I let you down.

yes. I'll be your goodgirl but bad forever.

I'm so upset with my own result. I'm going to take June soon.
Well, Congarulation those yang pass.

MKaaay's.<3

Jika cinta dia.

2010-01-31T01:05:00.001-08:00

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.
#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.
#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.
#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.
#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.
#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
#13 When she’s scared, protect her.
#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.
#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
#25 Don’t let her have the last word.
#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.
#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.
#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.
#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.
#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
#37 Let her into your world.
#38 Let her wear your clothes.
#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her
#40 Let her know she’s important.
#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”
#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

MKaaay's.

Your love just another game!

2010-01-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

DON'T WASTE YOUR FICTION TEARS ON ME. .I.
you won't be sorryyyyy!

Hello, I'm so Emo today!

2010-01-27T21:54:00.000-08:00

I'm keep on waiting the Olevel result. What if I don't make it? Damn! Regret all those I did before. I should study hard on this. Register sudah tadi. GAGAR!

Working today. Bila tah ku cuti ni? :sss Menunggu salary ku ni. Si Shyrah lagi minta Chipsmore.

Mahu hangout with the girls. *giggles. I miss si Raaa much. Soon mahu ke pantai juga. Oh yeah,I've registered my name to join the Gold Love dance. I'll be busy soon again and again. Of course, Dad pissed off. Forgive me, Dad. If I told you pun, You won't allowe me to join the dance thingy pun. So yeah, We'll practice the dance thingy this coming February for the first concert of P2F which on 23rd March, I guess. So, No partner? Yes, I have. Si Dayu nya join. HEEEEEEEEEE! Koreographer ku ani lagi cecapi usulnya. ucapnya kami umur 13. *Jeling.

Will cerita you guys soon. Okay?

I miss the girls.

WEE!

love = hurt

2010-01-27T21:41:00.000-08:00

I DON'T WANT A BROKEN HEART.

Hey, Mister Harder than you know!

2010-01-27T01:48:00.000-08:00

You should watch this!

What hurt the most..

2010-01-27T01:36:00.000-08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

This is wait..

2010-01-21T23:36:00.000-08:00

Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. <3

Time Clicks as I await.

The hour ends before my take.

Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes.

The day grows old as night passes

Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating

Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing

Silence begins the day

as morning comes without notice

Tears begin to fall, slowly

The day moves on without hope

Wishing to be what is not to be

The sun moves to its peak

without a whisper or retreat

Time moving, but still empty

Stomach aching, curling

Still waiting...

MKaaaay's. <3

me, myself and I.

2010-01-21T01:32:00.000-08:00

N : is a very good kisser too!
U : is loved by everyone
R : funny
E : has gorgeous eyes
L : is a very good kisser
L : is a very good kisser
I : is really sweet & romantic
A : crazy

D : a very good girlfriend or boyfriend anyone ever had
E : has gorgeous eyes
W : can be funny and dumb at times
I : is really sweet & romantic

MKaaaay's <3

This is life...

2010-01-21T00:28:00.000-08:00

The nice men are ugly.

The handsome men are not nice.

The handsome and nice men are gay.

The handsome, nice, and heterosexual men are married.

The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.

The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.

The handsome men without money are after our money.

The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don`t think we are beautiful enough.

The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.

The men, who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and
thank God are heterosexual, are shy, and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!

The men, who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

MKaaaay's <3

Love is..

2010-01-20T03:13:00.000-08:00

I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol.
Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish.
Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .
Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric.
Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric.
For she was already attractive enough.
Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care.
Carol wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't were spaghetti-straps or tubes.
So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn.
For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Cathlyn was labele d as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol.

Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Carol never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Eric.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her.

But she never forgot Eric.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.
Eric began to realise.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.

Cathlyn broke up with Eric later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Carol.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
"Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"

Eric felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Eric began to change into someone better.
Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Carol accepted him for himself .
She changed him.
Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them.
But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Carol was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Carol forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Eric for the last time.
Eric rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Carol was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed.
He still couldn't accept Carol's death.
He had only spent a month with Carol.

A month. But Carol changed his life in a way.
A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.

Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us.
Until they leave us.
Until we lose them.
Then we regret.
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts.
It's better to tell someone how much you love them.
Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them.
You'll regret Love is.
When we fight till the very last minute.
Just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

MKaaay's <3

19th January

2010-01-18T00:46:00.000-08:00

Third Day Of Working

I'm cool and try to suite myself with these people.

MKaaaay's.

16th January.

2010-01-15T17:58:00.000-08:00

First day of working

I've got free internet.

Imma off to lunch with Amal and Dayat.

Perbedaan membuat kita berpisah.

2010-01-06T04:34:00.000-08:00

so boring di rumah. so yeah, mummy and daddy sent off yuyu to UBD. and, im home with jenny and isma. si Isma nya demam.

Kerja ku dari pagi membaca novel saja. Since Mummy sudah memasak for lunch. Ive got nothing to do.

Petang was superb fun. Membaca novel again. Busan amat. Sarah hunny message me yang she's at Muara sudah. Yeay! She told me that she want to move here. Pindah school jua. So, She's planned kan jalan with us. I texted Aaril for sure.

Aaril messaged ia suruh besiap siap apa. So yeah, he arrived to my crib around four kali. Then terus ke Pantai Muara tunggu Sarah hunny About 15 minutes lah jua menunggu. So terus zooom ke Pantai Serasa round round sekejap. Then pergi singgah kedai lagi, Aaril belanja drinks. Then ke Pantai Serasa lagi. Parked sana then cerita cerita.

Around 7 plus, so yeah Aaril send me home. Next time lagi bejalan. Since Sarah hunny pindah sini sudah.

Fearwell!
Too much charming guys propose tadi. And Ive reject seven guys sudah. -,-"
I still want the old one. :( :(
Currently, I am missing him.
Eventhough we're not together but hey, i love him. Okay?
I did talk about this to Aaril and Sarah
Keep waits or Move on? I don't know :)
I'm trying to forget and hate him too. But still I can't do it.
If he read this?
I know he still care, I felt it. :')

Dear Mister-harder-than-you-know,
You'll never know how much i love you and you know what, the doctor said you left too much scar on my heart. And the doctor didn't have a cure for it. Well, I don't need the cure pun.

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin

another moment i spend with you.

2010-01-02T09:40:00.001-08:00

So much fun tadi! ;D
I was hangout with The Kelaspartnaaahs!

Around 3 plus,
Rushed to Babyamal's crib
~~Mengumpating session!~~
An experience of walking from Babyamal's crib to Liff Underground Studio.
*awu, tapi nya si Aaril inda ada. sob ku eh. -,-
Get back to BabyAmal's crib
Singgah at Komka beli ice creaaam.

Around 6 plus,
Daddy sent me to Fifie's crib. *Daddy warned me, Jangan akhir balik.
So buka fb and afc, ~~Mengucap gambar urang!~~
*those yang kana view atu, kana lah tu. :DDD
Planned mahu Main Pool with Darul
*tapi nya no respon. -_-"
So, Phonecall with Danan. Membawa jalan.
Danan picked us around 8 plus. So yes, singgah kedai. Beli foods and drinks.
*Danan belanja. HAHA!

Around nine plus,
Singgah Danan's crib sekejap ambil barang.
Spent almost 2 hours at Pantai Serasa.
No stars and moon
As the rain started, yeah. Kami jalan again.
Singgah Danan's crib lagi, tukar the car.
Yes, zooom terus ke Lambak beli minyak!
Then ke Mentiri ada BBQ tapi nya inda jadi.
Daddy calls me up around 11.30 suruh balik that time. Takut ada operasi.
*I'm still illegally underage eh?
So, around 12. Sent si Fifie dulu. Aku tidur sekajap.
Najie woke me up.
At last, home!
Okay, there's no any yelling or ceramah thingy? Cool!

Aaril messaged me suruh online and tell me yang ia on the way sudah.
He texted me and told me yang He's waiting outside.
So yeah, meet Aaril sekejap.
*Buang rindu. Lol!
15 minutes after.
So, ia minta diri mahu ke Liff Underground Studio mengusai guitar kali.

And yes, Later
Another phonecall with K.
Actually, I miss Rapii much. He did messaged me told me that He miss me. He messaged me about 4times.
*Baru tah mencari! Pfft. I really want to reply his messages thou. Tapi nya, ~~Ego bah ego!~~
So biar tia. I wanna let GUYS knows, how much they'll regret if they hurt a girl who love them so much.
*A guy need to realise too!

Thanks to Fifie, Babyamal, Danan, Boy and Najie for wasting your time just to dengani wi. And yeah, I have so much fun okay? Love!

So yeah, while waiting for phonecall. Mahu msn dulu. <3

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin

don't take me for a fool.

2009-12-29T20:56:00.001-08:00

yesterdaaaay was b-l-a-s-t!
i woke up around 8 plus. messaging with babygayish to confirm if she wants to join me or not. takde yang balas. ;s tidur lakat ay!
then rushed to bathroom. mandi mandi. Ayah mengusut sudah pasal akhir sudah. Mahu pergi Dad's office sekejap jumpa Uncle Mali. Batah jua lah menunggu Dad atu. Biasa lah. Ging ging bekurapak. ;]

Annen, Daddy drove us to Istana Nurul Iman. Ayah mahu sent something. Idk. Jpmc after that. So betah menunggu. Dr Ganesan keep nasihating me, suruh naik kan my weight. It's 32.7 kg. Ayah kena suruh exercise everyday. Well, as a daughter. I will dengani em'.

We're on our way to home. Ayah nya not feeling well and Isma too. So, di rumah ada Abang Sammmy dari KB. waiting si Mira nya pulang dari KK. -,- then ive changed my clothes apa. Mummy, me and Yuyu rushed to banking. And daddy allowed us for shopping. Money money money!

Went to Pustaka Remaja sekejap mahu beli buku for the Kids. Then ke Soon Lee Megamart, Batu Satu. dengani mummy shopping. I know it's late. Dayu nya malar sudah messaged.

Around 4 plus. Mummy sent me to Gadong. Sampai Gadong. Dengani Yuyu ke BMobile. si Isma nya mengusut minta belikan hapek baru. Well, the 3g thing. Aku pakai. Hahaha. Then sent Yuyu arah Mummy.

Rushed to Mall, Gadong. Phonecall sama si Dayu. Where are you guys?
So, we meet up di Foodcourt saja. Yang ada, Didenk and Anya. Burpdaaay Fash balik sudah. :( then, ke toilet. Photowhoring session!

Mummy Eve and The family datang! Ada her babyNayli jua. Kiyuuut macam sisternya babyWiwi. HAHAHA!

Siapa saja I met ah?
Efah Zakirah Ysc, Adohh Zaini, Medjah Al Meth, Bibi Cupcake, Naj Agoraclyse (sp?) , Afie Winsy aaaah ramai lah.
AFC chatters pun ada. ;D
was jalan jalan with the Starbaby. Karaoke di Brs.
Macam apaaa. Frust banar aku ah.

Texting with si Chang. Minta dangani. Haha. Then, went to Weststreet dengani em'. Talking talking ni. Ia jua texting sama sama. Dapan dapan sudah lakat texting. And yeah, si Dayu and Didenk nya tsshh tshh arah ku. Oyee datang macam si taie! HAHAHA!
Yeah. Kami kena interview uleh si Chang and si Oyee. Oh yeah, we met Aqimm Kecil ambung ah. HAHA. Aqim nya pun kena interview uleh Oyee. Out of weststreet. Oyee bawa liat wayang and i feels like malas kan tinggal kan Dayu and Didenk. So, yeah. We go to Arcade saja. Kbox. And dengani Oyee nya main tekken.

Well, Didenk and Dayu balik. And I was alone. So, tejumpa Ami then paksa tah bejalan with ia. And Indie-pendant too. ;p
Battery lowbatt!
Paksa tah jua si Ami nya bekorban credit for aku. HAHA!

So, Home around 9 plus. Tiredd! Online msn, texting with Rapii Theadore And Sarah hunny nya lagi mahu sleepover sini. Tapi nya inda jadi. :( was groupchat aso with Sarah and Aaril. Sesi mengumpating, I guess. -,- tapi nya aku busy. Ramai urang mentext. Beh Zae, Rudd, Wapi, Ami mentext. Panuh wei!

Imma off. Long post tah pulang. Enough eh. Mahu Gadong later jumpa Rapii and Movie with Maleena!

Happy birthday to Fashh Grr and Lana Panilla

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

when i need you, you're almost here.

2009-12-28T07:23:00.001-08:00

heh! what today's date ay? forget. anyway, it's payday. yeah, have to wake earlehh. we're off to bandar. bayar car apa. heh. susah meh. aku lagi mengantuk awww. :s

thanks to daddy!
he treat us lunch at Restaurant Nyonya. whee.~
after that, terus home and sleeeep -.-

at night, was bejalan with sister. and im planning cari salon. mahu cut my hair pasal im getting bored berhair panjang. :D

yeah, my hair isshort!

mahu bermovie with Aaril and babygayish, Fizz tommorow night.
but not confirm yet, si Aaril nya maybe tired bekas begigs and Fizz nya bangun nya maybe akhir. :s
petangnya, mahu jumpa the owners and ada gathering for afc mahu jumpa the ging. :D
actuallynya, mahu jumpa maleena and syira. ~~gossiping!~~
tapi nya durang inda dapat. :s

imma off to sleep, mengantuk.

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

a feeling that i can't hide.

2009-12-27T11:34:00.002-08:00

it's 2.30 am, i was boringer! aaril text me up and bawa jalan. and, we go cruising around serasa and muara camp. kes inda tahu kan ke mana. -,-

well, we talked about that something. aaril cerita cerita. and, ~~i just say oh. cian. sayang jua.~~ lol. bengenggg ku -,-

memajal hantap menguji ketakutan ku. so, he brought me to bukit tempayan pisang. damn, so lonely road sana. and, yes. kembang bulu ku. aaril nya lagi drive slowly :s

cruising di pantai serasa. mahu park tapi takut urang sebalah atu kdn. and, takut ada polisian. bejalan ani lagi ~~bedua.~~ since si aaril nya pun ~~inda belesen.~~ illegal eh. ;p

ada kerbau melintas, nama nya si wee. aku? =.=' bagus itu aaril. kerbau itu pun merati! ada anjing melintas, nama nya si acheh. HAHA! kiyut li ah, puteh lagi.

*skip skip skip*
hahaha. malas bagitau.

he sent me home around 3 plus. ia nya mengantuk. tapi mahu bejalan lagi. then, i decide suruh ia stay at home and tidur. and, now wee mahu mandi. so bebau sigup aaa now, si aaril ni besigup. :s
imma off to sleep right after shower.

and, aaril nya.
Goodluck for perform later <3

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

hiatus.

2009-12-25T23:49:00.000-08:00

will update soon!
i'm busy and i'm out of mood

According to you,
I'm stupid. I'm useless. I can't do anything right. I'm difficult. Hard to please. Forever changing my mind. I'm a mess in a dress. Can't show up on time, even it would save my life. I'm boring. I'm moody. I suck at telling jokes. I'm the girl with the worst attention. I'm immature. Act like a childish. I'm black. I'm ugly. Ain't cute. You took me for granted.

But..

According to him,
I'm beautiful. Incredible. He can't get me out of his heads. I'm funny. Irresistible. He's into me for everything I'm not. Talkactive. Easy to going with. I'm mature. I'm a good tutor. I'm a best reader. He love my voice. He love the way i am. He make a song for me due to my voice. He accept everything in me. :'D

That's the reason that i want to forget you fully and learn to let you go.

If you thought, That i will wait for you. You thought wrong!

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

a letter from hell.

2009-12-24T10:09:00.001-08:00

i don't know,
i really don't like that my feeling can easily change.

Rieff, again. he was posting something shit on my page. what a world. heehs. i know, stalking for good yeah?

Fling. Fling. Fling.
Seriously, I don't want any relationship for now.
I feel so stupid thinking about this.
Ive reject 6 guys after Ael broke my heart.
Ive reject 2 of my ex.
I still can't think about love.

Zaky Arieffin,
I know, We've a past. And i know, you're trying to win my heart back. Stalking. Skyping. You're trying to remind me about our past. But everything you did to me now is useless. I still can't accept you.

Love,
I still want you, I miss our lastnight moment. :')

enough with all this.

And not to forget,
Happy birthday to Aarul.
Stay handsome and best wishes from me.

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin

baby, can i stalk you everyday?

2009-12-23T09:27:00.001-08:00

It's Rieff here. I know, it's kinda rude stalking someone's blog. But hey, i don't give a damn. Wi's blog? Mine too. So, I wanna make this things right, Lia. I don't want us to be old us anymore. It's hurt you know. And I'm sure, You're also hurt. Blame me. Hate me. For my past mistake. I'm really really sorry. I wish i could fix all those stupid thing that i did. I'm too much regret here, Lia. Don't torture me anymore with those feeling. I know, the devil's around us. But I can feel it.. That you got the same feeling with me. Stop playing hide and seek to your heart. Even you reject me again, I am so fucking damn stupid because I'm so dumb leave you just because of a girl that in the future won't make me happy and soon, she left me alone. Omg! What ive supposed to do? :s Seriously, tell me.. Who's in your heart?

I'll be waiting for the ans.

Love, R.

i feel so goodgirl.

2009-12-22T12:06:00.001-08:00

today? awake around 10plus. Mummy was off to Ubd sent Yuyu. And, I'm awake. Terus switch on the tv and watched my favourite cartoon, Ben 10. My dad keep blablaing menyuruh shower. Belum bath yet. *skip this boring moaning!

Petang was so fun!
Daddy brought us to Pantai. As usually, I need exercise my eyes and my legs. I still can't gain my weight. Eventhough, I eat alot and alot. :s

It was night. Nothing's interesting. Hell yeah, I'm using Daddy's phone to go Online and anywhere. HAHA! Well yeah, Midnight. Si Lemak texted me up membawa lepak. So, i did! Aaril picked me up around 1 plus a m? :O What? I did asked Momma and Daddy's permission. I can't just sneak out due to some causes. LOL!

Melepak di Pantai Serasa was way too awkward. Si Lemak's friendsnya semua guys and I'm only a girl di sana? -,- Anyway, Lemak nya gain. Keep it up, Love!

Around 2.30am They send me home. Home sweet home. Thanks Aaril and Aarul. You guys was so so cool! Apaan. And thanks Ael for inviting me. Since batah sudah inda lepak ani jua kan.

Online msn, was texting with ~~Rudd, Wapi and Aaril.~~ :DD Ada jua menegur atu. Was like, Rudd and Me seems so complicated nowsaday. Yknow, Fling problem. Wapi and I? Heh. Forever soulmate bebeh! \m/ HAHA! And, Aaril? I was so ~~temeng~~ to him. And yeah, I thought he was joking saja. So, he texted me up yang ia diluar and ready kan menumbuk. But, mana? HAHA! Di luar melepak sekejap. Adik pun joined. We've talked about that something. Didn't have to know about it. It's confidential thingy. Then around 3plus, He said He ~~off to somewhere.~~

Well, till here.

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

You're invincible, it's true.

2009-12-20T04:50:00.000-08:00

Lesen tahunan awda berakhir pada 21-12-2009, Sila kekalkan baki yang mencukupi.

i love you, Love.

last words.

2009-12-20T04:49:00.003-08:00

Dear Loved One,
~~Please concern.~~ This might be the last chance I get. I'm living in a world of regret. Cry if you can hear me. I never meant to hurt you dearly. I'm so right sincerely. And don't stop take life seriously.

There's so much I've done wrong since you left it hit you so strong. Take my hand and let's walk through all the times You've lied and hurt me. Those people, please love them. You can have everything but have nothing.

These are the last words I'm ever gonna get to say to you, Life is more than just the games you're playing.

And I'm just down, you've left me with a message and without a sound. I've figured out I must stop being such a child. You never know How much I've been around. And I Love You, that will my last words.

Sincerely,
Nurellia Dewi Idayu Binti Matzin.

i look at me and wish i could be somebody else.

2009-12-19T22:17:00.001-08:00

This moaning, was suck! Yes, I mean it. It was suck. Was beroovoo with Fizz, Amal, Hasiff, Kryll and Pett lastnight sampai around 5am? Was berskype jua sama Rieff HAAA! menangis rindu aku. :p :p

Then was off to Msn. Texting with K, Rudd, Zae and Aliff. Sleep around 6 plus, And awake around 11plus. A girl jua benar :DDD

I was fucking pissed. My mum keep on yelling at me. ~~Yadayadayada Mom!~~ And, I keep on talking shit to her jua. Well, Sorry. I'm not a kid lagi. I'm a big girl sudah. About dad, It was not my fault! It was your fault, Mom. That's because you never have been there for Dad. Where are you wherever Dad need you? :')

I'm sick of crying. How I wish I was not in this family but Hey, I Love you all. <3

" ...Take me back to the place where I loved that guy for all the time.
Why must life just take away every good thing one of the time.

I want it back.
Well, yes. I want it back.
Yes, I want you back.
Please give it me back.
Cause I want your love.

How can I not even cry?
For such a big thing in my life.
The pain it takes part of me are turn around and say goodbye.

How did you do it Males?
It's always you do it Angels.
You always keep me on the run.
So how you do it Angels?

Said I was broken for a long time.

written by a guy.

2009-12-19T09:34:00.000-08:00

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. That it can't wait till the morning

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.Let us pay for you! Don't 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it.It's expected.Smile and say 'thank you

Kiss us when no one's watching.If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking,we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.We like you for who you are and not what you are.Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.or my T-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brat Pitt, or Jesse McCartney in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'? I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying i wouldn't like it ether ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change! Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowes
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys re-post this if you agree.
Girls re-post this if you think it's cute.

-Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will re-post this

ADVICE:

*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it

*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with her.

And Boys. If you like a girl, just TELL THEM. There's nothing to be afraid of. And if you don't , you'll regret it your whole life. They might just like you back, take that chance , its worth it !

-Girls re-post as: written by a guy
-Guys re-post as: girls need to realize

-If someone really really loves u and u break up, he or she will come back for you! because that's the beautiful part of True love.

tagg 5 people:

Qeen. Dayuu. Yuyu. Falah. Ayu Matzin.

the only thing i know is to feel.

2009-12-17T23:20:00.001-08:00

today, keraja ku. bejiwang. dengar lagu jiwang. nah, EMO tia ku. andang emo jua. lol. meher eh, ~~aHaKxXx!~~

Mahu list favourite song ku masani? :DD

― Like you'll never see me again by Alicia Keys.
― If i aint got you by Alicia Keys.
― Eleven days - Bi Rain.
― Please forgive me by Bryan Adams.
― Before he cheats by Carrie Underwood.
― Over you by Daughtry.
― Menunggu by Chrisye ft peterpan.
― Cinta ini membunuh ku by D'masiv.
― Merindukan mu by D'masiv.
― Diantara kalian by D'masiv.
― I love you by David Tao.
― Almost here by Delta Goodrem.
― Takkan ada yang lain by Dewidewi.
― Bersama bintang by Drive.
― Where you go by Fort Minor.
― Someone watching over me by Hilary Duff.
― Lips of an angel by Hinder.
― Down by JJ Lin Jun Jie.
― Tentang kita by L.One.
― Waktu Berakhir by Abandonce.
― Aku atau dia by Maria.
― Bisik hati by Maria.
― Jian jian dan dan by Lin Jun Jie.
― Truly, madly, deeply by Savage Garden.
― I knew i love you by Savage Garden.
― Harder than you know by Escape The Fate.
― Fall for you by Secondhand Serenade.
― Broken by Secondhand Serenade.
― Your call by Secondhand Serenade.
― Breathe you in by Thousand Foot Krutch.
― Hurt so bad.
― From the heart by Another Level.
― Bukan cinta biasa by Afgan.
― Situasi by Bunkface.
― Come back by Utada Hikaru.
― Angel by David Tao.
― Pupus by Dewa.
― Never be replace by First Lady.
― Don't wanna try by Frankie J.
― Ku xiao bu de by Ke Yun Lun.
― Knock you down by Keri Hilson.
― Cry by Rihanna.
― Hanya ingin kau tahu by Repvblik.
― Somebody that i can call Boo by Cassie.
― Like we used to by A Rocket to Moon.
― On a lonely night by A Rocket to Moon.
― Where did you go by A Rocket to Moon.
― A song for brokenheart by A Static Lullaby.
― Apology by Alesana.
― I wont see you tonight by A7x.
― Show me the meaning of being lonely by Backstreet Boys.
― Ego by Beyonce.
― Brokenhearted girl by Beyonce.
― I miss you by Blink 182.
― Someone like you by Boys like Girls.
― The only way i know how to feel by Boys like Girls.
― Moment of truth by FM Static.
― Tonight by FM Static.
― How you love me now by Hey Monday.
― 6 months by Hey Monday.
― If only the knew by A Rocket to Moon.
― Never think by Robert Pattinson.
― Tearsdrop on my guitar by Taylor Swift.
― You belong with me by Taylor Swift.
― The way i loved you by Taylor Swift.
― Come in with the rain by Taylor Swift.

And now, I'm listening to...
" ... Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkan mu
tapi ku sadar ku di antara kalian.."

all this songs, it's written for my life. (:

and for you, i am living for.

2009-12-17T22:51:00.001-08:00

Day One
Stadium Tertutup, 12.53pm.

mahnn. i was tired! lepas bangun terus mandi. then ada call, urgent. B E K E R J A ! !
like, whatthefuckkkk. then rushed to Stadium. and, i wore baju kurung with tudung. -_-" online fb and ask sesiapa di Stadium kerja expo. well, nasib ada si Pee. and ia pun ask mahu lunch sama sama di Jollibee. then, we did mengumpat pasal facebookers. HAHA, i know. it's lame. apan. and, malam jua. lunch sama sama di KFC. hot rods. hot rods. i know ada that reader ah, minat hotrods. HAHAHA!

Day two.
not working due to some reason. benci i.

bangun akhir today? yes. bekas semalam begayut 2hr 58mins on the phone with Muhammad Khairul. he. he. he.
will meet you soon, beh. (L)

texting with Rudd for awhile. lalalala. entah heh. imy Rudd!

fyi, wi is not contactkan lagi dengan Sarah Morgan, Aaril and Aarul. due to a lot of reason.
" Ampun kan saja aku ah? Jangan lupa, 26th. Movie! "

now, mahu mandi and lunch. tradadaada. <3

tagged by Qeen. <3

2009-12-15T08:11:00.000-08:00

At what point in your relationship did you fall in love with him?

♥ imma turn a player to playessss. APAAN.

What is one thing that made you fall in love with him?

♥ His eyes.

What did you think the first time you saw him?

♥ Lemak nya bertambah.

If you were rich where would you go and why?

♥ Mekah, esehh. Hajah Nurellia Dewi Idayu, nice?

What is your biggest dream in life?

♥ Mahu jadi Artist eh.

Have you ever lied to him and if so what about?

♥ Once saja.

Do you see you’re being together for a long time?

♥ Nope, We're over sudah.

Is there anyone think that you would want to change about your relationship?

♥ Entah.

Is there anything you want to change about yourself?

♥ Err, My voice.

Where do you see yourself in 5 to 10 years?

♥ Archuleta's, Geddit?

What is your favourite place to go on any given day?

♥ Ego.

Do you see yourself having children one day?

♥ I don't know.

As a child did you see yourself doing what you are doing today?

♥ Haha.

Has the attraction you have for him changed since you got together?

♥ No.

Do you believe in date nights?
♥ Duhh?

If you were on vacation just you and him would you wear pajamas to bed?

♥ Mahu pakai tees and Boxer saja eh. HAHA!

What's one romantic thing you would do for him?

♥ I always give a kiss.

Would you serve him breakfast in bed?

♥ EE! No, Kamah karang my beddy.

Would you like to be served breakfast in bed?

♥ Heaven yes

If you could have one meal in bed what would it, be?

♥ Lemakkkkk, Imy! :(

let's light up the town and scream out loud.

2009-12-14T22:17:00.001-08:00

I can't sleep lastnight. i did skyping with arieff and nesh semalam. godd, bila kamu balik? rindu wah ku. :( :(

Amal and Fizz nya memajal suruh online oovoo rindu kan bewebby. heh. i really miss you guys jua. Soon, hangout.

Online fb, msn and afc sekaligus. haha. Seriously, aku keboringan banar!

Hey Love, don't mind my words atu. I know, you realised that I was hurting you by that words. But, I'm still not satisfied about us. And damn, I can't forget the past. Forgive me pasal the words. And, pasal Oyee. I will beware of him. Don't worry. I'm not yours jua lagi. Why do you have to care? You don't even care about me jua kan. Peace.

Chatting Msn&Afc. Adohh. Ramai urang text. Sampai... biyut my finger. -.-

It's around 4 plus kali tadi Subuh. Mahu pergi Pantai Muara since si Aaril nya mahu pick me up and mahu listened semua problem. My love tutor, really. My brain is going to burst!

Not a million fights could make me hate you. If we will last these days and If I asked you to stay.. Would you tell me, you would be mine?

I am only left behind since that new fish came and shouldn't let you cheated me so sweetly!

if they only knew.

2009-12-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

I won't sit here for waiting. Would you stay for me?
14.12.2009 Monday
1.29am

what a boring night. i wish i was in las vegas mahu gambling. LOL

aku rindu sekolah. benar! swear! rindu the teachers jua. especially Teacher Suzeina. ://

aku rindu kelas ku yang inda seberapa lawa atu.

aku rindu kelaspartnaah ku. semua lah, especially durang Baby, Fizz, Fifie, Dayat, Saufi, Wandy, Alengs and Mea.

aku rindu ging ku juaaaa.

aku rindu Tommy banyak banyak!

aku rindu exs ku juaa. mahu aku sebut semua? ;//

rindu Asyraf and Zule dengan ku poke.

siapa lagi aaa? --"

he's killing me.

2009-12-13T09:26:00.001-08:00

Come in with the rain.
14.12.2009 Monday
1.11 am

Sarah gave me this song and the lyric too. Sarah cakap, it's size me. HAHA! pandai pandai itu anak. don't worry, i'll meet you soon, Miss Morgan. ;D

Cry alone, I've gone away.
No more nights, No more pain.
I've gone alone, took all my strength.
But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight.

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood.
All the ones around me.
I cared for and loved most of all i loved.
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away.

It all built up, inside of me.
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free.
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame.
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight.

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.

No more breath inside essence left my heart tonight.

Another

the only evidence.

2009-12-13T09:07:00.001-08:00

A Photograph of You and I.
14.12.09 Monday
12.54am

holiday! holiday!
what a boring school holiday =.= mahnn. this is the first time i had a suck fucking holiday.

i need vacation to release my tension. yknow. after exaaam sucking my head.

i need money.

cravinggg Mc Flurry Oreo jua!

haven't watch new moon yet. planning kan liat sama Aaril and Sarah. tapi durangnya busy memanjang.

wanna watch avatar soon sama Danan and Saufi. kes nada dangan. so i'll bring them saja.

need to update my cupboard jua. i know, this month sudah banyak beli tees and jeans saja. tapi mahu lagi. shopaholic eh!

mahu bergadong sama owners starbaby. RINDUUU!

mahu jumpa mummy eve jua!

lupa password email gstring ku.

gila makan saja. tapi inda jua mahu lampohnya. -_-

sleepover arah babypatch soon. can't wait!

and, my weight is still 31.6 kg? cemanatah kan naik tu.

cry alone.

2009-12-08T09:17:00.000-08:00

IF I WON'T SEE YOU TONIGHT
09.12.09 Wednesday
1.08am

today, aku melayan si Sarah ceweknya Aarul. frustated ia. haha. ia keboringan! so she texted me up. time atu aku pun boring. :D

si Sarah keep on mengusuting. rindukan si Aarul nya. si Wiwi pun keep on mengusuting rindukan si Kimmy, babyboy! (L)

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
Back=D

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Wb sm.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
haha. ty ww.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
mp

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
pyh mky ebudy ane, ngusut

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
hahaha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
abis credit tu ulehnya.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
kngta download. ngusut ne web ar

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
hahaha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
andangnya

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
awuu. yata akyt pala

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
haha

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Wi pun tu. Kadangkadang inda mahu. Ani download lagu pun na mahu aa.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
yata web sakit sne wi.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
haha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
sarah download lagu arah?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
na sarah mdownload, mminta li oh. haha. Sarah na tau dmna mdownload.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Adeyh.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
haha

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Apa saja lagu lawa?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Semalam Aaril ada text bah, tapi Wi tetidur.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
lagu apa wi mau?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
lagu jiwang eng.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
um. hp sarah bformat. na pulg byk ne. pt mmc dulu bru best pi format dha

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
yaka? hehe. rugi =D

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Apa yang rugi? Haha.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
a7x mnat?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
wi ttdu ar. haha

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Minaat.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Haha. Yalah, apa ruginya?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
i wont see you tonight da pnah dgr?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
ani wi tunggu ia n9, if ia ada jua.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Belumm.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
antah. haha. ;p

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Lawa ka?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
lawa thu hun. Sarah suka dgr bla stress

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
yeapt.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Adeyh.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
karang wi download

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
first ayat, "cry alone, i've gone away..." =D

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Sarah stress lah ni? Haha

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
eshh. Jiwang.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
awuu, haha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
wi tahu sarah stress. sabar.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
awuu.. ayat ayat ny mcm, touching la. haha

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
hehe. awu wi, i will.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Jiwang e.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
behapa ne?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
da download dha?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
laying, chat. wi?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Oh. Samaa le tu.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
On afc?

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
na hun. wi?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Malas.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
ramai urg bru

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
yeaa.. bri malas.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
ambung2 lage.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
No more breath inside essence left my heart tonight.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
ngam. salam na kna jawap

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
eseh.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
au. yatah wah.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
wi biasaa dengan yang lawa lawa.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
eseh. haha. please dont forget me or cry while im away.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
cpa ja wi? yg lawa taja? haha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
eseh. jiwanggg.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
*lama lama.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
apa yang wi pikir ani? haha.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
apa thu oh. haha

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Yang lama lama. Salah tu, lawa lawa ah. haha. palau.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
Hahaha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
sorry xD

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
luan asik sudah.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
napapa wi =D

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
asik ngam? =D

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
*ngan

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
apaan. haha.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
asik sudah chat.

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
haha

sarahmorgan-@thatswhoiam.in says:
np boredom? ttm mna?

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Boredom le.

ASM wiwi boredom. says:
Ttm? Haha. Nada.

P.S si Wiwi and si Sarah mengumpat! HAHAHA. shh, hunn.

only tears can tell how hurt i am.

2009-12-07T15:40:00.001-08:00

I CAN'T FORGET AND I AM SLOWLY TRYING TO FORGIVE
08.12.2009 Tuesday
7.27am

i took a chance. i took a shot.
and you might think i'm bulletproof but i'm not.
you took a swing, i took it hard and down here from the ground. i see who you are.

i'm sick and tired of your attitude.
i'm feeling like i don't know you.
you tell me that you love me but you cut me down.

and i need you like a heartbeat but you know you got a mean streak.
makes me run for cover when you're around.

and here's to you and your temper
yes, i remember what you said lastlastlastlastlastnight.
and i know that you see what you're doing to me.
tell me, why?

you could write the book on how to ruin someone's perfect day.
well, i get so confused and frustated.
forget what i'm trying to say.

i'm sick and tired of your reason.
i got no one to believe in.
you tell me that you want me then push me around.

why do you have to make me feel small when you feel whole inside?
why do you have to put down my dreams when you're the only thing on my mind?

Ael Sykes i take a step back, let you go.
i told you, i'm not bulletproof.
now you know.

END WITH TEARS.

this conversation is over.

2009-12-07T15:25:00.001-08:00

FORGIVE AND FORGET?
08.12.2009 Tuesday
7.04am

Moanday was blast. On the Morning, wake up earlehh and do the laundry thing. Then rushed to the bathbuthroom. Ayah bising belum lagi aku besiap. Sorry, Daddy. I know, you're hot. LOL

My family and I went to Ripas Hospital ambil ubat si Yuyu. And the worse thing is, NO PARKING!
My daddy keep on mengusuting. HAHA! Then let My mum drive saja. So, they 'menurunkan' di depan out patient. And yknow, i was begagas right? My hair belum besisir and inda sampat pakai sneaker so aku pakai slipper saja? like.. urang lihat macam.. *skip it*

MALU EH! Then, so tejumpa si Jimmy and Babunya. Then, we brought them lah jalan jalan. Aunty Betty keep on calling mahu tanya pasal the new car. Yes! We went to Land Transport with Aunty Betty and without Mummy and Jimmy, Babunya. Urus everything. New comer, BAA7112. HAHA! oh yeah, back to Boustead. Then, have a couple of tea. And i keep mengusut arah daddy mahu that 330000 dollar GTR Skyline once ive got license. As my 18th birthday. *kiraikirai.

Petang was blast jua. Jalan with Fashh Grr and Daiiyou H. Meth. (L) heh. round round macam si banar. tejumpa si Tremendousstarbaby. I don't biasa with her. Cousin si Fash, i think. Lupa sudah. -.-
si Baby phonecall. Like,

Baby : ui damit!
Wiwi : ui besar!

Sorry baby, inda kedengaran bah your voice atu. Terjumpa Amyradhi and Lina Hairrock jua. :D tapi malu mahu tegur. My battery lagi kan mati. At last, mati tah jua. Brother Zem was there jua tapi si Dayu nya bawa lari. HAHA. as in they're incomplicated. Well, after Dayu and Fash balik. Jumpa Kaka Micca and Yen Whiskey! (L)
*jealouskan Fash and Dayu.

Malam. Went online msn and fb. Well, Sorry to Afysh, Amyradhi, Aaril, Wapyy, Adli and etc.
Wiwi tetidur semalam betext dengan kamu. Sleepy much. :D

Happy 18th Birthday to Mohd Khairul Falah Bin Kifle (^)
stay macho ah, as usual. :p

a pain of kind that always crashing on me.

2009-12-04T09:48:00.001-08:00

I THINK I COULD FORGET YOU AND ITS NOT WORK.

1.35am pantai.

mirra : stop hurting yourself babe.
wi : i know. *gusuk kepala.

mirra : ada ia ingau kan usul mu mcm buduh ani?
wi : entah.
mirra : adang tah, wi.
wi : i'll be fine.

mummy eve : don't cry, he's maybe proud if wi cry.
wi : no, he's not. he's happy with someone else.

dhirah : udah bagi his thing? wth. kenapa bagi? you told me, that things tempat buang rindu ia.
wi : i can't stand it lagi. *titis airmata.

acheh : if sudah cematu, apa ku nasihat kau?
wi : forget him and move on.

abang e : sudah tah. cari lain.
wi : adik ada cari lain tapi... that guy stupid.
abang e : mahu abg cari kan?
wi : but i still want the old one.
abang e : cemana tah kan melupa kan ia ni?
wi : its takes time.

kaka zii : adang adang kau sabut nama nya.
wi : au. au. *ngusut.

JANGAN PAKSA AKU WAHHH.
JANGAN TAH LARANG AKU. AU. ITS ON PROCESS TO FORGET HIM. EVERYTHING PASAL IA SUDAH KU DELETE APA. HATI KU WAH PIKIR, CEMANA KAN DELETE IA NYA? -.-

i'm trying to let it go.

2009-12-03T01:57:00.001-08:00

FORGET AND MOVE ON
4.54pm @pantai muara.

first of all, Happy Birthday to Acheh. since his birthday, so we've invite him jua arah bbq with my kelaspartnah. inda banyak yang datang. :DD

after finish makan apa. Acheh start this coversation. yes, Acheh. aku bodoh! :D

ngam tah tu kata mu ah, bodoh ni aku ah. be mature. au, dua dua salah. ngam. lelaki? yes, kata mu. into sex berabis. jangan lagi di ubah. HAHAHA!

- forget him.

- be happy with others.

- past is past.

- don't hurt myself, for him it's nothing.

- don't do whatever that makes me remind of him.

- delete everything about him.

- make him regret for all he did.

- move on.

si Acheh mengajar aku cara minta goback. but, hell. from now, it's hard for me. single is okay. sakit kepala ku mikir. HAAAH. and yes, everything pasal ia.. well thanks pasal gtau. i'm not his type jua kan? :DD

apa nya mu tadi, " kadang kadang lelaki sudah dapat, ia lari and akhirnya, menyasal " and " kadang kadang lelaki sudah dapat, ia inda lari. ia masih sayang kita. "

satu persamaan tentang lelaki is EGO.

[1] cinta nafsu - ia dapat and ia inda setia and tinggalkan kita.

[2] cinta hati - ia dapat and ia setia and cinta kita.

cinta nafsu and cinta hati, which type is yours?

thanks for the advice, Acheh. ;D

remember all the things we wanted. now all our memories, they're haunted. we were always meant to say goodbye. even with our fists held high. it never would have worked out right. we were never meant for do or die.

i didn't want us to burn out. i didn't come here to hurt you.

i want you to know. it doesn't matter where we take this road. someone's gotta go. and i want you to know you couldn't have loved me better but i want you to move on so i'm already gone.

looking at you makes it harder but i know that you'll find another that doesn't always make you wanna cry. its started with the perfect kiss. we could feel the poison set in. " perfect " couldn't keep this love alive. you know that i love you so. but i love you enough to let you go.

`i am starting to let you go.

i knew you by my heart and you don't even know how it start.

2009-11-30T11:38:00.000-08:00

TUESDAY, 01.12.2009
3.36 am.

it's between me plus you.

asleep || transfer credit -.- ' ael ; [R] has joined the session!

w218@live.com says:
bangun!

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
jangan tidur.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
bangun.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
jubur eh.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
alum batah bah.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
oiiiii.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
rinduuuuuu. :( :(

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
lamakkkk.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
cungg!

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
kutu malam.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
pandaaaaa.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
lingkaaaa.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
kiyot ku!

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
heh, apa lagi ah?

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
orang sasaaaat.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
sexyyy voice.

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
milta. =.=

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
pine. pine. ;'/

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
menyamal i. :|

wi, imh. and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
gemooook.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
alum batah chat tadi. tidur tia. kutu malam jua banar. HAHAH.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
rinduuuu. rindu serindunya. jiwang -.-

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
pine. pine. :( :(

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
tidur taaah. mata atu macam panda.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
atu, ilebiu.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
update blog dulu. ihy!

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
jubur ani.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
bah, ilebiu.

wi, and i am tired of being all alone :') says:
rinduuuuuuu ... :(

i'm thorn into pieces.
2009-11-29T03:25:00.001-08:00
i am tired of being all alone. will you come back baby?

i miss you. i miss you.
i can't pretend that i'm not desperate of you.
i can't stand of missing you.
i can't stand it lagi.
im wasting too much tears for you.
im not hoping or begging but i can't stand it anymore.

i miss you like CRAZYYY.

mata panda. <3

I need you desperately.

2009-11-27T08:51:00.001-08:00

I know it's been some time but there's something in my mind.

You see,
I haven't been the same since that cold November day.
We said we needed space. But all we found was an empty space.

And the only things I learned is that I need you desperately. So here I am and can you please tell me.

Where do broken hearts go?
Can they find their way home?

Back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there?
And if somebody loves you won't they always loves you?
I look in your eyes and I know that you still care for me.

I've around enough to know that dreams don't turn to gold. And that there is no easy way no, you can run away. And what we had was so much more that what we had before.

And no matter how I try, you're always on my mind.

And now that I am here with tears, I'll never let you go.

For me, you still care for me.

Love, how's life? I miss you, much.

if today is my last day.

2009-11-26T09:23:00.000-08:00

jubur. kutu malam. mata panda. lemak. lingka.

i (L) you.

7 scars that company my life.

2009-11-25T22:31:00.001-08:00

pagi ;

online msn
- chat with Alwyn.
- discuss with kelaspartnahh for BBQ's party.
- curhat sama Fifie.
- Wan text, mengusut pasal fifie.

Petang ;

- home.
- tidurkan Jenny.
- ikut tidur!
- Makan saja, Gemuk badan i.

Malam ;

- Facebook on.
- Afc's, begatal.
- Forum in Bruchat. Melihat Banana menari.
- Msn with Riri.

I'm looking at this wall. Repeating " I Love You " Just take your pick. They're all the same. These things that you are telling me can't really show me how you feel.

I'm breaking down. I'm falling down. But now, I'm breathing. And now I'm scared to move on. Don't listen to a word I tell you. Just take me by my hand. And I swear I'll make this up to you.

So now you want me to fix everything. But baby, there's so much and so little time to replace the things I've broken ripped apart and thrown away. You can say that you don't miss me. I think about you every day.

someone like you.

2009-11-23T07:41:00.000-08:00

Ael Sykes,
i hate missing you. (L)

baby! i love you so much but you hurt me so bad. :'D

2009-11-22T15:27:00.001-08:00

your messages keep annoying me with your lala words.

your voice clips makes me think of you back.

that harder-than-you-know giving me more stress up.

i knew i love you before i met you remind me of when i was form two and you're form five.

waktu berakhir keeps saying that was the best song we had.

my wall-to-wall with you was the evidence of our lulalilo story.

aku cinta mati dengan kamu dewi is the best promise that i've got from my only one.

you forgot this i'll never hurt you.

hug me when i cried is your best talent for me.

you help me to cook for lunch when you're here.

sharing one pillow is worth for us.

your small guitar makes me wondering that you'll always be there for me.

the first date was the best moment with you.

sungkai outing was blaaast even we've love problem.

i miss dance-dance-revolution with you.

you sang me a situasi when i had a first jamming with you.

your bestfriends cheer me up when they know we have a fight.

wake me up when yknow i was mengigau.

my babyfruits keep saying ' uncle helmi datang '

my mum keep asking when you're gonna come again.

my dad accidently get a wrong person and he thought it was you.

my sister keep menyumpahing with the two bitches not because of you but rude to her.

my brother sam always check my messages when it's come to you.

the words, i love you so much? i don't know where it should be. :')

heartache and pain.

2009-11-20T07:29:00.000-08:00

aku hanya ingin menangis dan menyeksa diri ini.

I Love You, Helmi. (L)

don't you see that i'm the one who understand you? been here alone, so why can't you see?

2009-11-19T07:16:00.000-08:00

i feel very weak today. seriously, it hurt me. 3 months 12 days. you're wasting time on me. forget HER if you want to start a new life. i'm not begging. it's just. pfffft. i dunno what to say lagi. my words is enough sudah.

tell me, how much you love me now?

`you don't care how it hurts.

no body like you, love.

2009-11-18T08:26:00.001-08:00

hello. it's tearsday midnight. my life getting sucks and suckfuckedup. cursed alot today. gara gara moody! -.-"

yesterday morning was blaaast. lol. bangun pagi. gosok gigi. mandi then off to terminal. i was sleepy. bekas menunggu cousin ku akhir balik. mata panda ku eh. lol. sent off my cousin to Labuan. farewell babe. (L)

then reached home zooom to kitchen cooked for lunch. kebiasaan sudah bah heh. then, sent my sistor to ubd. and jenny mummy and i lefuck at pantai serasa while waiting daddy balik kerja. :D

reached home. let say, aku tidur memanjang. sampai petang. demam ku bah. T.T mata merah. nose bleeding. inda beranti berasin ku. o.0

my night juga begitu. dinner dengan donut since aku "mengidam". HAHAHA!

Why can't we just be like this. Cause it's you that i need and nothing else until the end. Who else can ever make me feel the way i feel I'm with you, no one will ever do.

Telling me, you're not good enough. My life with you is just too tough. You know me enough so. You know what i need, Ael Sykes. Right next to you is where i need to be. (L)

my lonely night.

2009-11-16T08:10:00.000-08:00

i am crying all alone. alone in the dark. switch on jiwang's music. turn on our favourite songs.

dear god,
did he know that i am so fucking missing him now?
did he know that i am badly need him so much?

mahu jumpa. mahu hugs. mahu kiss. mahu tidur arah his arm. mahu mengadu how adik tumbuk aku. mahu peluk when he knows aku takut. mahu ia tahu that aku imagine paranormal activity. mahu ia tahu yang aku loss appetite masani. pfft!

by, i am missing you.
by, i am badly need you.
by, i am uncondition in EVOL with you.

please. don't you remember our promise? :'(

all i can do for now, is crying.

i love his big ego.

2009-11-12T07:38:00.000-08:00

Last Tuesday, i woke up earlehh than mummy and Daddy. HEE! that's gara gara banguni my babyfruits. sent daddy to his office and we're off to Dr Lim's Clinic at Bandar Seri Begawan. i know POKLEN was there. macam, makin banyak wah di sana atu. lol!

Afternoon, I'mma off to Gadong with Fifie and Fizz. yeaaaaay. Phobia 2 was awesomeeee! Mummy sent me there about 2pm labih. I know late. I'm sorry, Falah. HAHA! inda sempat lihat Phobia2 samasama. Yahooo~ kami waiting cinema macam si talor sorang. kboxing with them. then lepas cinema, kami jalan jalan. aku mendengani bisdurang pancing ikan. we're also terjumpa cousin si Fifie. and Mizan Buubuu was text me yang ia kan jumpa. then i shall bring Fizz too. pasal ia yang mahu sangat jumpa si Mizan Bubuu. kami jumpa di Chill. macam apa anak aa, ucapnya aku buntak. ia pun sama saja. LOL!

Yesterday, morning nya aku lagi bangun awal. ituini. biasalah. bini bini. haha. fifie balik balik message. awu, rlekkkkk! HAHAHA. petang, i went to Fifie's crib.

we went to Mangrove Paradise Resort. ramai ramai. mahu apply kerja sana. for sementara menunggu result. them jumpa ramai orang orang sekulah serasa jua. senang tah nanti if kerja sana. banyak jua dangan. hehehe. then, kami jalaaaaaaaan jumpa Babyamal. kesian! her daddy not allowed her to work with us. ;/ a minute after atu, kami semua ramai ramai serbu Liff Underground Studio. tejumpa tia si Aaril. ceh, makin tia panjang cerita kami. haha. mengumpat apalah inilah. planning kan jumpa si Aliff ni. then, balik jalan kaki kerumah Babyamal. masing masing ngalih ni. HAHAHA! i treated them dengan icecreaaaaaam. :)

Why? well, you got the key to my heart.

but you ain't gonna need it.

i'd rather you open up my body and show me secrets,

you didn't know inside.

Ael Sykes, I Miss You.

and the flashback start!

2009-11-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

i know, back to past. kes boring melihat template inda bertukar. nah, back to past tah pulang. lupa ku sudah cemana mengusai. LOL! nanti tanya bisdurang cemana kan mengusai itu ini. HAHAHAHAHA!

tommorow, phobia2. ;D

`Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same cause I'm not over you. (L)

you're the perfect lullaby.

2009-10-28T23:08:00.000-07:00

tattoo your name across my heart. so, it will remain. not even death can make us apart.

pagi. i always bangun awal. heho. what can i say. anak perempuan. meherrr. HAHAHA! ingat aku ni, apa? lol.

petang was okaaaay. kemana ku yesterdaaay? T.T aku lupaa. malam i is tuition aww. tapi awal keluar. kesian si babygay ku. surang. HAHAHA! biar ia. (6)-(6)
oh yeah, i went to Moi's place. we're celebrating her buttday. also, we went skypeing with Neshh. she's birthday juaa. si kasan atu. she's in England.

i miss you, Nesh.

Happy 18th Birthday
to Liyana Rosle and Hanisah Aziz. <3
- i love you, cousins. xo'

malam, aku curhat curhat problem ku sama sayy, falah-ster! kusut banar di malam. heho.

P.S sorry, dimalam sayy. tetidur me. T.T ampunnn.~

`Ael Sykes, you wrote the book on Love. (L)(L)!

daytime friends and nighttime lover.

2009-10-27T10:11:00.001-07:00

daytime friends and nighttime lover. they don't want to hurt the others. so, they love in the nighttime. and shake hands in the light of day.

awaaal awal lagi sudah bangun. what a life. mummy popet popet saja. =.=
get up tarus cuci muka apa then, vacuum everything lepas atu banguni si sexier sistaah. then, i was like memasak! =,= di pahami keraja bini bini. then, out to gadong. biasa. payment bah.

petang was suckkks. its history exam. i was like kan ke hospital. then, my friends call up daddy. and told me that, it was my friends. exam pukul dua. like, shit jua. my jadual was 3.15pm. =.= inda ku sempat revision sedikit. rush ke dewan. then it's like, totally PAYAAAAAH! cursing saja ku dari tadi. oh bytheway, my paper kosong and awal keluar exam tadi. (y)

happy birthday to Muhammad Shahrul Faizal bin Matzin

and, yang lain. i did greet through facebook saja ah? :DD

` Ael Sykes, do you miss me?

when our love begins to fade.

2009-10-24T12:50:00.001-07:00

you said it would last forever but now i doubt if i was your only lover.

my life getting bored without him. yes, him. no late sleep er on saturday night. no sound oh uh oh uh anymore. waah, i miss you alot baby. please, forgive me? :']

my afternoon was awesome. studying with babyamal and darul. (L)-(L) yes, amal's sister was here too. i keep on mengusuting arah darul with my lalalove problem. and we end up our meeting with beicecreaming.

my night was full-of-blast with mummy dad and my lil fucking brother. everybody knows. it's payday. dinner outings too. thanks to dad. <3

my life night today was not-that-emptiness-too. i've got my friends to cheer up. so, i did some request to my friends and mostly si paes nya yang mengcomment. inda mahu mengaku lagi. =.=
we go online around 11plus arah bruchat eh? si paes nya minta ajar cara buat font color sama belajar emoticon nya.

wiwi : you, kiyut banana nya ah. pandai menari ah you. ;D

paes : au. macam you.

wiwi : macam me? ;s

antam tah paes ging si power rangernya. tapi banar ah, banana nya pandai menari. ih, hutang ah you, rose sama chocolate. -.-

i miss-call helmi around 3plus in the morning, i miss you darling!

puzzle of my heart.

2009-10-20T21:00:00.000-07:00

every time we touch. this feeling is too much. he's all i ever need to fall in love again. i knew it from the very start.

Ael Sykes, he's the puzzle of my heart. ♥

don't eat your own bestfriend.

2009-10-01T09:30:00.000-07:00

todaaaay, its 1st of october. omg. berapa days saja lagi kan olevel? i havent ready yet. i know, its already late kan itu ini. yesterday, goddamn blast. pagi pagi, awal bangun. macam setaie. and pagi pagi mesti ada sesi mengumpating. (Y)
i like toh. ih, banyak menyalin bah yesterday. energy bah kurang ulehnya. HAHAHA!

petang yesterday, stayback?
YES. belajar kunun. palatlah. nada ada bah sesi belajar ah. macam si banar ke library. study group lah apalah. revision lah. toink. ni nah keraja diri aa, bekatik katik hp saja. lol. malam? yeay, ke jpmc lawat kimmy. tapi that night juga, kimmy discharge sudah. alhamdulilah. :D

today? HAHA.
im so focking sleepy masa maths. baaaaaaaanar! =='
maths bah tu. banyak kerja.
class lagi freakin' hot. oh. geography, menyalin menyalin. rugi bah inda menyalin. :D
sci? HAH. sesi meluahkan perasaan tu bui. sampai tah 1.30, sambung extraclass tarus. then as usual, i had lunch with kelaaaspartnerss beramai ramai. serbu nasi katok di bawah school aa. ;DD

vanilla blue ait, fie? ;p

sayang ada message. he told me yang ia di serasaaa. then, i asked him to pick me up and send me home and yes, he did. ambil my bag di bus stand and zooooom to my crib.

yeay, aku rindu ia now. blabla.

1st october;

happy 17th birthday, macaaah.
- a classmate of mine.

28th september;

happy 20th belated birthday, muhammad helmi.
- my sexxmate ever.

happy 17th belated birthday, erma nurazzwa.
- my bestfriend since pra.

29th september;

happy 17th belated birthday,
muhd azrinshah.
- my primary 5's exboyfriend.

`i am afraid to lose you, sayang.
did you regret ever standing by my side?
did you forget what we were feeling inside?
but somewhere we went wrong we were once so strong
our love is like a song
and Ael Sykes, i'll remember you always.

i am starting to MISS him.

2009-09-20T07:25:00.001-07:00

hello.
sorry amat terlambat post nya bulan ini. hehs. malas bah malas. haha.

today? hah. my darling Helmi sleepover di rumah. he said, he'll come around 1.30am. tapi you late 15 minutes?! pftt. mengantuk wah me. haha.
then kami lepak lepak di luar, opps. i mean, dating. HAHA! sampai pukul 4plus. jimmy pun ada. i was ngantuk at the first. mengusut arah Helmi. then sudah dalam rumah, hyper. dangani jimmy liat tv sampai ia tetidur. then, me and sayang cerita cerita. he was about kan sleeep sudah tapi aku, macaaam

me : sayang, i can't sleep. *gusukgusuk kepala.

helmi : bah, tidur taaah.

me limpang arah helmi. then, i was like..

me : sayang, i still cant sleep.

my head sakit. Helmi urut urut my kepala sampai ku tetidur. then tidur around 6 plus?

ayah banguni around 9 plus. and im still fucking sleepy. banguni sayang around 9 plus. then, aku tarus bathroom wash my face and brush my teeth. then terus ke dapur help mama buat kami punya breakfast. sayang ku malas puasa today :DD

then duduk duduk watch tvs then around 12, kami having lunch. grr, i love you ih. around 12.30pm sayang balik.

Sayang, badan you panas and atu me mau picik lamak you lagi buleh? :DD

Sir Lamb Mate Hairy Ray Yes Ma Half Za Hair But Thin.
Forgive me if i have done any mistake.

`mirror yourself before you judge people.

another sungkai outings.

2009-09-03T08:42:00.001-07:00

it's been awhile, i didn't post anything. i am very busy with school thingy. a bunch of homework, i haven't finish it yet. penyakit M, damn.

oh, yeah. its thursday! :DD
im on duty and im laaaate to school. what a day! haha. late lagi, buht nasib lah inda ada late slip. malas bah masuk hep, bida nama tarus. ;pp

miss monicc back! haha. miss monic got denggi feber? lied Mr Bruce. ;DD then, 3 period of maths. whaaat? oh, its n plus 1 over two. revision thingy, alots belum siap jua. -.-" break, kerja ku buat maths. rajin gitu. and geo and sci, as usual lah.

afternooonn? haha. balik school, changed clothes then online facebook. bedinding sama sayang. then around 2 plus, mummy suruh tidurkan si budak gauk jimmy. and laast last, aku pun nyaman tidur (y)

wake up around 5. sayang me message,
" yang b awal ni jalan. ada b mc dua kali tu if b suruh online k? "

sambung tidur sekaaaajap. then, alum batah. mummy banguni.

" inda kau jadi kah? aher sudaaah ni. " malas malas ke bilik mandi. after thaaat, sayang mc dua kali. aww, online. then, after siap clothing tarus pasang iron and layan si sayang. inda batah atu, si yuyu message.
" siap siap tah kan sampai sudah ne. "

gaaaaaaaadong :DD
sungkai sama cousins and love, farewell for Neshh <3
jalan jalan to Mall. berkaraoke sampai berdansaaa.~
Nesh, nice swaying. ;p
and i is terjumpa si nadyaa, like? heh, nadia kah ni? haha. imy nadia! balik around 9 plus, singgah pasar malam beli tongkingg chicken :DD sent si sayaaang pulai. then i reached home around, 10 plus? haave a blaaaaast! picture will upload soon.

Happy 17th Birthday to Noraqillah Binti Juli, my bestfriend since primary 3 ♥

baby, the problem is I MISS YOU.

2009-08-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

sahur around at 4plus today.
teruss saja menerikah baju for scchool sambil check facebook and online msn.
a few minutes later,
messaaaaage!

from my sayang,
ia minta maaf.
yes, he did.
pasal kami kelaie semalaam. hummp.
im sorry.
i know, it's my fault.
i let he in my stupid problems.
and,
that fucking guy majaler texttext me
which i cannot stand it anymore.
so, i did invited my sayang to this coversation.
they're fighting. and, of course.
im the one should be blame on.

my sayang texted.
suruh offline that time juga.
im curious.
then,
seriously, he maaaaaad at me.

then, i go offline and dengar all his voiceclips
that make my tears fall down.
i know, its succkks.

hummp.
webcam with zae just now.
yeah, i do miss him.
batah inda jumpa and contact with him.
gonna meet you soon, zaaae!

Helmi, my only one.

Sayang, me maaau jumpa you bah. ;'{

HAHAHEHEHIHIHOHO!

2009-08-19T07:39:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

it's been a long time i don't update my blog. hehe. an for sure, ramai yang suruh wiwi update. SORRY AHH! haha. busy and busy bah. no time for lappy. =/

today? hmm. what today's date aa? lupa ih. oh yeaaah, it's 19th August 2009.

morning lesson? cooooool!

Geography, we did learn about Irrigation. haha. copy copy, and homeworks? gaah. got two homeworks bah geo. later buat or just do it tommorow? HAHA! jokes.

History, lagi seronok. haha. pasal philipines aa. macam macam nama kan di buat bahh and teacher bagi mcq question saja. andd homework? oh, not again -.-"

IRK, haha. macam setaie duduk di dapan. kira inda kalat mata laah ni. tapi laternya.. mengampaaii.

Break? HAAAAAAH! that girl balik awal aa. kira kan cari pasal sudah ni. membari sakit hati. adakah di tuduhnya akuu ucap ucap ia since form 4? HELLLOOOO~

pleaselaaaah, aku lagi inda kenal kau. fuckk!

no lesson for bahasa melayu todayy, cikguu meeting. and english? kami but vocab saja while teacher sedang test oral for them. >.<

P E T A N G

dangani adik kuu ke klinik. macam apa anak aa. berapa hari sudah inda sch, kana tambah lagi cuti nya. buset! haha. sorrrrryy beetch.

balik dari klinik, ada my darling tunggu dirumah kan bawa jalan. heehs. kinda miss him so fucking more!

kami jalaaaaaaan, pantai?

hah, sayang. what do you did aaa? my leher merah aa. you ani tah, nampak urang krang. lovebite youu atu. cehs, lemakk you b. HAHAHA! siukk di picik, LOL!

P.S I LOVE YOU

cancel!

2009-08-08T19:01:00.001-07:00

selamat pagi cinta :D

today, with a date of 9th August twothousandnine. correct if i'm wrong. haha. lupa ku sudah. dxmn.

yesterdaaaaay, omigadd.
SUCKULAH macam biasaaa. cca ada tapi kami kami inda masuk. haha. project lagi belum siap aww. then sukan, macam biasa. keraja ku duduk meliat durang main bball. aku nada mood kan main. haha. so buka laptop, pasang lagu basar basar. lagu lagi jiwang. haha. dengan penuh perasaan sudah ni menyanyi. toink! kana tah jua bula ani arah ku. atu teriak teriak ku. sakit whaaat. haha. and time history, no lesson. teacher still marking the paper. and aku slash fifie and alai. picture picture. sejam, gambar kami dapat, 100+. *senyum besar.

petang yesterday was suck. we've planned go jaming. then, inda jadi. which is fuckkk. *cursing. HAHA. 3 jam wah menunggu. alif said, he's free opened the studio after 5. tapi si fizz kana marah marah sudah. haha. and and last kami balik. durang danan, saufy and wandi balik sudah awal. ;/ and left, aku, fizz, mizan, gapel and nazrey. at 4.30pm fizz balik. then last last mizan sent me home. thank you mizaaaan.

and balik, aku tarus makan. kelaparan wah. haha. dad's home. me, sister and dad jalan pergi kedai beli barang. and after thaaaat. go jalan jalan pantai muara curhat curhat. and last, home sweet home.

mohd helmi's.

`i miss you but i hate you, mum.

having a blast!

2009-08-05T09:15:00.001-07:00

todaaaay was so much fun. even it's my wed-wasteday ever. HAHA.

it start when morning school. there's no geography class for today. i don't know why. his-story, haha. very menyeronokkan. after correction paper1. then, we do our own work. apa laagi, becerita saja kerja kami. kan wandi? you talk a lot tadi. ugamaa as usual juga, cikgu nada. FUUUNN LAGI!

after breaak.~
lagi seronok, and we got wow! haha. mula mula, semua duduk duduk bekumpul. then, i start spining the bottle. ;p then then, my kelasspartner neh banyak tah idea durang. if siapa yang kana, then ia kana punnishment.

thank god, aku inda kena the part yang sakit sakit. lastik, tumbuk, ampas and cubit. buht, my hand merah after durang ampas. SUCKK-IT WHAAAAT! espeacially, part mizan and saufy ampas tangan ku.
MIJJAN, my hands purple uleh mu. and saufy, ceh. badan ku damit. teplanting wah kuu kau numbuk. matai. and yes, english period. aku rajin belajar (y)

sesi petaaaaang lagi siuk. haha.
jaaaaming with classmate. hehe. thanks to mizan, saufy, gapel and nazri. and and, semua lah. we have a lot of fun tadi. :D pokoknya, seteress hilang masa menari rimba bebanan awww. anyungg.~
*picts will upload soon.
we did enjoy jalan kaki-ing to babyamal's crib. right? and i did treat them ice creaaaam. hehs.

malam, as usual. kelaas malam maths with fizz bumbum. banyak becerita. and berhello panda. (;

oh, yeaaaah.

happy birthday to Nadia Ibrahim(L)
my bestiee honey. i love you!

`if he stupid enough to left you, be smart to let him go.

you're the secret.

2009-07-25T20:17:00.001-07:00

what today's date?
oh. i almost forget ih. lama sudah inda update blog. and kinda miss to update. -.-"

malas wah update. haha. ngaleh ku typing ani. ;s tiap hari kusut. haha. tiap hari jua ku mengaleh kan update. aku pemalas nows a day!

today aku kan share secret, tapi tapi malas. haha. tu, malas jua. ;p bukan nya malas wah. karit kan bagitauu. :D

atu, i love this crush. tapi tapi ia inda tauu. maybe ia still sayangkan his ex. aaaa, idk lah. if i tell him the three words now, confirm tah kuuu hurt yo. ;D mauu jua kuu pelahan pelahan dulo. LOL!

this song goes to my secret.
i hung up the phone tonight.
something happened for the first time.
deep inside
it was a rush, what a rush
cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
about me
it's just too much, just too much.

why do i keep running from the truth
all i ever think about is you
you got me hypnotized, so memerized
and i just got to know

do you ever think
when you're all alone
all that we can be
where this thing could go
am i crazy or falling in love
is it real or just another crush
do you catch your breath
when i look at you
are you holding back
like the way i do
cause im trying, trying to walk away
but i know this crush ain't going away, going away

has it ever crossed my mind
when were hangin, spending time boy
are we just friend
is there more is there more
see it's a chance we've gotta take
cause i believe that we can make this into
something that will last, last forever, and ever!

ILY MY CRUSH ♥

survey ex ku pemajal. :D

2009-07-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

1) baby, mengapa you tinggalkan me?
- lupa me, kenapa.

2) kejam wah you. mengapa kan ni?
- you peduli apa.

3) aii. sampai hati you. me tau me handsome waa.
- eeeh. perasan kau ani ih.

4) goback eh, mau you? please. me cinta you lakat wah.
- ya wah? baru ku tau.

5) serious wah baby. me betul betul mau sama you. inda you mau?
- inda kau mau wa ey.

6) banar ni? inda you menyasal?
- aweh, apakan di nyasal kan ah.

7) cemana tah ne, me sayang you lakat aa.
- atu, kau punya pasal.

8) me minta maaf bah. jangan di ungkit, please?
- ungkit apalagi ni. belipat idung mu karang.

9) me janji, kali ani seratus percent me setia sama you.
- ha. ha. kan muntah ku mendangar ih.

10) aii. jangan cani wah baby, apakan ni.
- napakan? ingin ingin hati neh.

11) me tau you sayang me lakat. kan?
- boh. cana kau tau?

12) don't worry, me always sama you. okay?
- behapa? begay?

13) you cinta me kan?
- inda ih, you cinta dang joyah anak si landak juaa kan?

14) kita goback aah lai?
- kata ku, inda inda lah. talur.

15) awu awu, jangantah nah. menyamal me.
- nyamal pulang, ingat aku kan mujuk? palat lah.

16) you wah, inda mau goback ah.
- so? apa masalahnya kan?

17) me cinta you wah paloi ih.
- kau bodoh aah.

18) yatah nya me, goback bodoh.
- ih, malas me goback dengan urang yang inda bemural.

19) pujuk wah ih, ex apa kan ni inda mau mujuk.
- ha. ha. minta pujuk, inda ku kan mujuk wang. sadar kah? diri tuha udah.

20) aweh aweh, minta tampar you? maie mua you atu.
- tampar tah. ingat aku takot. nah nah, mua ku.

21) inda me jadi goback sama you.
- aha, yatah ku nanti nantikan tu.

22) bah. nanti me ke kubur you, okay baby?
- bah, lawat saja me aah. kubur yang warna purple betulis tu " kubur si wiwi lawa " okay?

u p d a t e d ;D

2009-07-17T08:13:00.000-07:00

once upon a time, there was a boy and a girl who's falling in love with each other, but suddenly force to break up cause of family disagree of their relationship. till one day the girl heard that the boy was married. she totally sad cause the boy she love married with other girl..
years later, she saw the guy carrying his daughter..she asked,

girl ; whats her name?

then he smiled sadly and said,

boy ; same as yours.
.

UPDATED!
walaupun inda seberapa post wiwi ani. still update okay? haha. so sorry. :D

song request.

2009-06-16T23:12:00.000-07:00

RULES:
' YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU 'OKAY' YOU SAY?
- alone in love.

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF
- bleeding in love.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- superhuman.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY
- untouched.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- good girl gone bad.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
- unfaithful.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- good enough.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- born to make you happy.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- love in this club.

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
- stickwitu.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- too lilttle too late.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- cinderella.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- little miss obessive.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- dear god.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- dance with the devil.

WHATS YOUR HOPE?
- come back to me.

WHAT WILL YOU DO TO FORGET YOUR EX?
- picture to burn.

WHAT WILL YOU SAY TO WHOM YOU LOVE MOST?
- a little too not over you.

WHAT WILL YOU DO IF YOU GET FRUSTATED?
- tearsdrop on my guitar.

SO, WHATS ARE DOING NOW?
- i write sins not tragedies.

LIST 10 TAGGED PEOPLE.
- ayu matzin, edayu mh, yuyu rohayu, qeen jamil, lynn oh lynn, thy twisted, anya muffins, wana zulaini, mimi hj jaludin and g7.

updateeeeee!

2009-06-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

wiwi lagi wiwi lagi
sudah update. puaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas?

si dayu saiank ni majal suruh update aa. sudah update ni dayu. yang lain lain nanti lagi update aa saaii.

2009-06-13T21:37:00.000-07:00

HAAAAI AGAIN AGAIN, i know you guys getting bored with my post. hallelujah~

pictures and more pictures lagi.

pictures di bawah ini adalah semasa kami nunggu Miss Monic for Extraclass english.

i love this pose. ;p

Rasta girl. ;D

Love Signs.

pictures di bawah ani, semasa balik extraclass geography on Friday, while waiting kana ambil so kami sempat begambar. apaaaan.

Bestfriends forever: Baby, Wiwi and Fifie.

wiwi and fifie

ani mau mau tah jua ni ia aa kan begambar. kan Macah? ;D

Aksi aksi merekaaaa, iloveyou kelaspartnerrrr!

itu Fifie. ;P

ani masa si Baby kan ikut aku balik. sekali Mama ani masih tia di Beribi. HAHAHA. its like tebalik tah pulang. aku tah pulang ikut si baby haha. ampon ampon.

3 in 1

2009-06-13T21:27:00.000-07:00

it's on 31st May

I mean, aku sama durang berjaur jaur. haha.

first place;
Angkatan Tentera Udara. sementara itu, kami menikmati pameran disana. haha. jalan jalan buang stresss. tapi kami bawa anak anak apakan? haha.

2nd place:
Taman Persisiran Damuan.

3rd place:
Danish' crib at Rimba lagi ada BBQ.

History Presentation.

2009-06-13T21:09:00.000-07:00

hello.

haha. sorry batah amat update nya bisa bisa. cana tah jua. lappy aku nggak ada yo. sorry sorry yang teramat waa. HAHA! picts di bawa ani adalah.. masa aku presentation saama Darul tapi malangnya gambar kami nada. kesian aku. haha. tapi tapi ani gambar durang saufi presentation. masa extraclass petang pulang ni. HEE! ;p

thuRSday, 4th June.

Saufi Donny Don Supastar. ;p

Mimi, Partner si Saufi.

Fifie and Wiwi.

ani, urang p.o.a aah. mengambang sorang sorang.
from left; fizz, faqi and baby.

Abang Wandi and Darul. ;D
Dayaaaaaat.

and He is Faqi. ;dd

happy mama's day. ;]

2009-05-10T08:36:00.001-07:00

people, listen to the music. haha. apaan panat. anyway, good night. selamat tidur ya. ;D today, 10th may two thousand nine.
aku bangun pagi pukul berapa aa, lupa i eh. menalur ganya tu bah. iatah kan. ngek ngek. lapas zohor, baru ku mandi. HAHAHA!

pagi pagi, aku meses mama. gaha. dengan kata kata yang aneh. HAHA! aneh apaan. romantik lahh. dengan mama pun kan beromantik. well. bangga lah dikit. haha. talur talur. kana kau sumpahan free, wi oh wi.

petang petang, kami 4 cars. convoy ke rumah tangah hajah aisah. tsf gathering, slash perkumpulan the senuddin family. majlis doa kesyukuran, yang tangah haji nuai very the feeling well sudah. aku sampat lah pict pict suasana nya. ;P time time menapauu. HAHAHA! saat indah tu yo. (Y)(Y)

after the majlis, me, yuyu and steven went to boboy's crib slash sayang ku punya rumah. HAHA! ani pun, pasal si ayu and si steven majal-er kan install the gamehouse. yang susah nya, pendrive durang tinggal. and, aku ada bawa, tapi pendrive ku talur dikit inda mau diformat budoh aa. last last, kami ah. main cs ani wah. like wtf! batah ku inda main. bangang ani wah. biasa f1, ani takan b saja. ngek eh. and and, jua. durang pakai cd saja instal gamehouse. ngek. around 6 baru balik.

kamu kamu, aku demam selesma. and migrain ku datang aa. beeyatch ih. =[

Happy Mother's Day.

mama,

you're my gold, crystal, jade and diamond.

the way you treat me, it's so well. you're too perfect for me.

the happiness that we shared together is the best memory that I will remember till the day I die.

you're always in my thought. you gave me everything, but you want nothing back.

just wanna let you know, you're the best mama I ever had, I love you.

(L)(L) wiwi.

batah inda update.

2009-05-09T00:34:00.000-07:00

now, aku di library. since nada kan di buat di rumah atu jua. :] today was soo soo very the boring eehs. anyway, selamat petang. morning school was okay. we have Majlis Penutup Minggu Disiplin. and and, we did watch slide documentary sepanjang minggu disiplin. and and, gambar kami ada kana tayangkan. ih, malu ih. thanks cikgu haji azrin. will link you later. HAHA! and and, tadi jua kami begambar saja. idk that teacher's name pokonya ia mengajar IRK. i guess. ;p

LATER, brother zem, didenk will be at my crib. lagi berninja ninja gitu. HAHAHA! elek saja buii. jangan akhir karang ih, urang kalat mata ni. haha. kan tidur wah.

gaha. homework ku makin betimbun. test ku makin banyak. lusa will get maths test result. tadi test history which aku jawab 3 question saja since aku inda baca atu pun banyak yang ku bual. HAHA! and and geography test will be next wednesday. HAHA! wish me luck buddy.

bah bah, buat presentation ku dulu. and hell yeah, tommorow tsf gathering will have DDR and bla bla and of course makan. ;D

(L)(L) wiwi.

be happy belated.

2009-04-26T01:03:00.000-07:00

yesterday, we have a vip day in smpihm. which i really don't like. haa. ive only got 5Os for test 1. crappy result. ayah meet my class teacher, cikgu suzeina. HAHA! it's kinda fun bytheway. teacher gtau ayah, yang me escape eca. ahaha. then, like ayah tanya.

cikgu suzeina: pandai sudah ia escape eca ni tadi pagi.

ayah: nah.

cikgu suzeina: cikgu club durang tadi betanya tu.

me senyum saja.

ayah: nah, kemana kauu?

well, dengan megahnya aku menjawab. " anuu, aku di kelas. bosann bah. "

HAHAHA!

after signsign the record thingy. dad decided kan jumpa cikgu maths, mr tew.

haha. habis yo aku kana ceramahi. cani nah cerita nya.

mr tew: berapa marks test 1 mu?

me: haaa. *bagi result paper arah sir*

mr tew: 27. adehdeh.

me senyumm saja.

mr tew: ia ani, execise bulih tahan. andang selalu menghantar. rajin. sudah test inda saya tahu kenapa ia bulih drop atuu.

ayah: iatah. di rumah ia ani okay sajaaa. jarang kan bemain.

me terharuu.

mr tew: tapi kalau dalam class, ia ani diam diam saja. kalau saya betanya, faham kah inda. emua cakap paham. iatah durng ani payahan2.

HAHA! mahhnn, aku ingat sampai atu sajaaa. masa arah cikgu geography. okayy juga. just segi bekawann. ;s and, cikgu mawarni, ahaha. selalu membagi aku ketawa saja. adakah tanyanya ayah macam ani, " ia ani bedaling kah? " atuu ketawa kuuu nyaman. HAHA!

for all subjects, dad inda marah just jangan main main. anuu, nextweek aku tuition. HUHU! );

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAM!

i♥you my brother.

aku sayang adik ku.

2009-04-22T09:04:00.001-07:00

hello. sorry. ive been long inda update since im busseh with my school thing. ive got 3 presentation that have to finish it by next week. my extra classes too, which i really hate it. tireeed! :/ it's like, there's no time for me to rest at all.

story for today? heehs. we've got morning assembly. haha. and, i just being vain melintas the prefects. lalalala. then, last last. whaathheepaak! the prefects tahan. it was 7.09 am, is that so late to come for school? then, students were finish assembly. then, us yang akhir datang kana suruh berbaris. and like wth. kana suruh berikrar. :D haha. but. okaaay what. mengambang.

geography test based on demographic translation model. well, sanang juga lah sedikit. (Y)

and last, went to ceri cafe. tukar layout nyeh. okay kah my layout? ;p my sister yang pilih ni. ngeek. but, rate 7/10. she's know my taste! ;D

happy 13th birthday, APSM! ;x my forever adik. hehs, i love you, isma. and you know whaaat? anuu, kau cilaka. =D

love, wiwi.

happy birthday kaka bb

2009-04-04T00:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKA BB!

jumpa eve!

2009-03-30T02:56:00.000-07:00

HEHE

yesterday, 29th March 2009.

it's supposed to be 28th March woahh, the gathering for starbabes and stardudes. tapi tapi banyak yang inda datang. HAHA~ tapi we make it on 29th March. siukk! firstly, jumpaaa abang zem and it's was so scary pasal ada guy tarus tarus duduk sebalah ku. then, kenalan lah apalaaah. macam tah ku inda kenal ia. HAHA! telurss. tecubittecubit, datang gatalnyaa ah.

then, akuu tarus tunggu fash arah kokoberry. sorry Fash, wiwi lupa woaah muka fash. HAHA. then then, kami ni tarus lah ke arcade baru ah. then, text text sama didenk. ia kan datang jua. then, andang datang jua lah. ;p

kami diri diri ni macam si paluii tangahtangah foodcourt ah. ngeeks. then ada tia lagi a guy ah, tarus tarus cubitcubit. eeeh, sasak ku ih. aku text dibahh supaya datang. HAHA! durang zem and didenk jalan jalan while aku sama fash karaoke screamingg si fash. then, at last dibah datang jua. alum batah atuu, ada tiaaa si eve. HAHA!

P.S eve tingggi!

kami jalan jalan kali. durangg nikan ngantar si fash tuition. semua lagi turun. HAHA. last last, durang fash and didenk tarik akuu. HAHA. ngantar si fash tuition. ayoh, punya lah jauhh tempat nya dari mall. siukk eee. balik ke mall, jalanjalan saja. dibah belanja lolipops! thankssss dorling.

fooodcourt.

si eve kelaparan. haha. dudukduduk menunggu makanan then ada lagi that guy huh dari belakang mencubit aku. siaaaaaaaaal!

masa balik.

i'm with A48.

mau tau behapaaaaa?

adatah tu. HAHAHA!

*pictures ada lagi. will upload soon. (:

♥♥

Happy Birthday, Alengs.

2009-03-30T02:15:00.000-07:00

It's 27th March 2009.

We, classmates hangout to celebrate Aleng's Birthday.

P.S alengs sedikit ambung ah. HAHA! sabar kawans, marah marah woah kami arah si alengs. siapa tah suruh tinggalkan kami. -.-"

melintasi urang. sudah gepren balik baru tah mengaga kami. kejam you, alengs.

and, i did managed took some pictures for the sadbadday. (:

it's wiwi.

sama Yuyu. (;

Anak Si Matzin

Kbox-ing. Fifie, Fizah, Yuyu & Wiwi.

Again, Kbox.

lift, Bambam-Fifie-Wiwi.

Thenkan~ We guys kelaparan sorang sorang. last last, we went to Nasi Katok saja. HAHA! save budjet bah yo. and, ajim ani mandai mandai woah gambar gambar.

Kes sasak arah ajim!

alengs jadi pelayan sementara ni. (;

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, ALENGS.

♥♥

happy birthday alengs ;D

2009-03-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

HI! haha. sorry've been busseh with my history project which is we have to make a song and not include the lyric & music. which is very the haaaaaard thingy. :/

my maths punnishment jua alum siap. HAHA! oh mahn, it's just a 10 set of formula. which i can finish it for a day.

eehs. ;s don't know kan post apa eh? headbangg-ing. bah. im off to gadong, celebrate ~~alengs's birthday~~.

happy 17th birthday aleng

love, wiwi. (:

nat in maad tadoy. ;s

2009-03-17T09:13:00.001-07:00

have you ever been asked out?
- yes, always.

where is your default picture taken?
- in my room. (:

your current relationship status?
- it's complicated. :/

does your crush like you back?
- inda kali. HAHA! kesian pisin nya.

what is your current mood?
- boring!

what color underwear are you wearing?
- black and pink. LOLS.

what color bra are you wearing?
- pink? hahaha.

if you could go back in time and change something, would you?
- i want him BACK!

do you still like your ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
- haha. ~~egentagah~~ ;D

ever had a near death experience?
- nope.

something you do a lot?
- plurking. HEE.

the song stuck in your head?
- i love you by David Tao.
name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
- faraaah ;D

when was the last time you cried?
- yesterday, night.

have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
- nope. -.-'

if you could have one super power what would it be?
- can i? ;O

what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- idk. =s

what's your biggest secret?
- achelerr ;dd

favorite color?
- black, white, pink, purple & red.

ever lie to spare someones feelings?
- dulu? awu. HAHA!

do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
- yeaaaah, minat ~~barbie~~ kali ah.

what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
- chocolate? >.<

do you speak any other language?
- a lil bit chinese.

what's your favorite smell?
- babyzae's perfume. ;D

if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
- okay.

when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
- tadi, haha.

ever been kissed in the rain?
- yeah, once.

what are you thinking about right now?
- tidur. lakaslakas typing. XD

what should you be doing?
- tidoor. =.=

who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
- my nephew, jerry.

do you act differently around the person you like?
- eish. awu, malu. >.<

what is your natural hair color?
- black, and now it's brownish purple.

who was the last person to make you cry?
- adli and reffs & not to forget, nimooh. (L)

5 tag people:
- ayu matzin, liyana rosle, qeen jamil, yuyu & wana. =D

pfft. im off!

at last. =]

2009-03-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

guysh. ;dd so long and goodnight. haha. at laaaaast, freedom. XD the test 1 was ended. &don't know the marks yet. my maths marks very the ~~buruk.~~ :/ english pun very the fishlife. haha. afaan? broken english jua banar. will update soon. busseh with fb and fs and tagged and not to forget, plurk. ;D

happy birthday to eafy.
best wishes,
Dewi M (:

pfft. im off!

sasak i. =/

2009-03-13T03:45:00.000-07:00

hello. (:
update update lagi. so far, imma lil bit busseh with books. and, hellyeaah test. tsk. tsk. alumm abis yo. yesterday, geo & irk. like, akuu baca irk saja. damn. geo aww, aku banar banarkan the natural vegetation. & yangg kuu sakit hati. lain yang ku baca lain yang keluar. sasak i. deforest waa. pelui. yang case study arah sabah. tsk. =.='

today, uwaaaa. aher i bangunn. cos' around 1am, durang zem , dayu and didenk kerumah. melepak melepak. dalam kereta. HAHA! sampat kami beceritaa pasal durang si yane. and the RHs. babi drg aw. anthen kan, pictures sudahh pulang beupload. tapi tapi arah starbabes/stardudes punya friendster.
*will upload soon. =D

oh yeaah. tadi langsung indaa bemood wah. :// sudah tah kelaie saja. sial wah sial. anthen, si adli invite me dengan si qylls. grr. sasak ku. telahar2. bahi jua banar. si fee ganya paham. -.*" nah, bangkak oo my eyes.

annthen, masaa last saturday kann.~ smpihm ada function. pasal hari kesihatan kali. haha. tapi, aku inda school. nyaman tidur ku yo. (Y)(Y)

the pictures ada jua, you guys can click ♥
QEEN to view some pictures. thanks qeen. ;D

HEE! happy birthday to fye dropdeaddoll and mieers exotic kitty gore.
i love you berdua begitu banyak dech. (;

-(L)(L)-

pfft. im off!

Labels: fuckinggg not in the mood.

update. -.-"

2009-03-11T07:44:00.001-07:00

i is very the minta maaf. ;/ cause update my blog very the late. ;s oho. bonjourr! its was awesome masa hari ahad, isnin and and wth, what was i trying to say kan. -.-"

yesterday, i've test for english and maths d. omaagadd. the test really really makin' sick. english was okay. &maths. uwaaah. mr tew will very freaking pissed with my marks nanti cos' banyak inda bejawab plus the time was not enuff. :/ and morning tadi, got malay and combine sci test which i is just sekali imbas baca. :// & malay, the memodenkan payah. comb sci, lagi buruk. banyakk kosong. sir kiyuut no more here. iatahkan. he's moving to PTEK. then, i wish i was there. HAHA!
p.s we miss you, sir.

today, im very the not in mood. haha. and i did, scratch my hands for bloodsign. yeahyeah. wasting tears&blood. nooh, kamu pakai fansign. steadyy lagi i, pakai blood segala. HAHA! and, im sorry nimoh for the stupid thing. i wish i didn't do. but. i do. =.=

happy 16th birthday to babyamal. ;D i love you my bestbestfriend puriber and iber.

im off. pfft!

pesta buku (:

2009-03-06T20:48:00.000-08:00

My dady bring me to Pesta Buku at Stadium Tertutup since I Loove Novel. So, we went to Uncle Jaafar Shop. then, I saw Bikash NurIdris. and I also meet her & bought her new book. Atas Nama Cinta. (L)

Bikash NurIdris & Me.

♥s; wiwi.

The Senuddin's Family Day Out AGAIN.

2009-03-06T20:28:00.001-08:00

Location: Jerudong Park Medical Centre.

We're Matzin's Family actually have to get to Pharmacy ambil ubat. Then, My mums was in the car then calling me. Tangah Haji Nuai beroperation di JPMC. then, kami pun waiting. then, after that kami pun ke General Ward. Masa Melawat Habis. Senuddin's Fam went to JPMC's Restaurant for lunch.

then, We went home.

JPMC's Restaurant.

Nice View. (Y)(Y)

Me & Ain.

♥s; wiwi.

spend my time with them.

2009-03-06T20:14:00.000-08:00

We went to Pantai Muara On Thursday, 5th February.

I took some pictures. Belows:

My Nephew and Niece; Jerry & Jenny.

Jenny. ("-")/

walking on the massage path.

Ain.

♥s; wiwi.

midnight's ninja.

2009-03-06T19:59:00.000-08:00

MIDNIGHT'S NINJA

Location: Wiwi's House.

Time: Midnight.

On 21st February 2009.

Zem, Wiwi & Didenk.

Adik Yamin. OPPS!
p.s ABANG YAMIN.

Zem

Didenk.

On 5th March 2009

Pose Maut si DAYU!

Didenk, Zem & Dayu.

Zem & Dayu

♥s; wiwi.